You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
@wonderousSigns7
I just hate being myself everything about me seems to suck and a part of me wishes everyone in my life leaves me so I can have a good reason to die
@DavidMatt
Nothing about you is bad. I've hated myself for awhile now, but I realized that just being myself and accepting who I am was really all I needed to do. You're an amazing person, and the people in your life don't leave you, because they love and care for you!
I have some things to rant about so here it goes (Sorry if it's long)
In gym, my friend Jason and I were on a mat, those things they use for situps and stuff like that, we were just playing and messing around when these guys come over to us and try and kick us off now me and Jason are stubborn and liked to use the mats as forts so we weren't giving it up easily, one of the guys says to just push us off and another guy says "Yeah, the girl (Me) is so skinny" and they start demanding what my weight is now I'm very insecure about my weight because I can't gain any dued to genetics so I'm really skinny and it doesn't help that I have tons of food allergies and can't get the right foods. Still they push on wanting to know my weight and I say "71" because thats the last thing I remember my weight being and they all burst out laughing. Later they came back and started shoving/dragging my friend, I grab Jason so he couldn't be dragged anymore and the third and final guy says "What are you guys, dating?" I stare at him before saying "I'm Gay." ( I meant bi) He stares at me before rolling his eyes and saying "That's....That's disgusting" I'm even more mad and it doesn't help when he lifts the mat and tries to crush me with it so I start kicking him and he says it doesn't hurt and I'm weak before saying "I can fill out a bully report on you." and I respond with "I can to since you said I'm disgusting because I'm gay and you guys made fun of weight." Him and his friends say those are justs words and they don't matter because I kicked him, they soon enough give up.
This is what I have to say to him if I ever get the chance: "I'm not disgusting because I'm Bi, who I love doesn't effect your life so let me love who I want to love. Also weather someone is bi, gay, pan, trans, nonbinary, asexual, etc they are still HUMANS no matter what, they deserve happiness an no one should be aloud to take that happiness away from them."
And if being mad at those boys in gym wasn't enough for my emotions I am really nervous because I plan to come out to my mom tomorrow (April 10th, 2018, A beatiful date to me) I am really hoping for things to work out well and she doesn't tell my dad before I'm ready to tell him. My friend is giving me encouragement saying how proud she is of me and to be confident about what I believe in and it's working I feel more confident but still feel nervous as I think about the bad situtions that can spawn from this.
@limegreenPlum9327
That sounds really rough. But I'm glad you faced up to them. That was really brave of you to do! You're a strong and amazing person! You showed alot of courage standing up to those bullies. And they know it.
I hope everything went well April 10th!
I asked my doctor for a psychiatrist referral and was basically told they couldn
@asheroo92
That's hard. I hope though that you will be able to see one very soon! I'm glad you started writing, sometimes it can help. And don't feel discouraged about asking! Sometimes we don't get what we want right away because there is something better just up ahead
I finally have a 2 week break from school and i just want to relax but I'm being made to do everything...
My mother found out i started self harming again and wants me to try therapy. Now I'm here. My girlfriend is going through some rough things and i feel selfish if i even mention im not ok so I'm trying to hide it but somehow everyone sees through it... I've done so much to hurt her i dont deserve her im so selfish.
Im pansexual although i feel mostly gay. But how the hell am i supposed to talk about that wigh anyone remotely close to me. My head is so clouded and things are getting too much to handle...
I get bullied a lot and its happened all my life, first it started off with "accidentally" throwing balls at my face, then for a few years it was just verbal bullying, but ever since i moved into this house its been much more than that. I've had food and rocks thrown at me, drinks, water balloons, i got beat up and broke my nose, that was all last year, the year before wasnt as bad i guess but this year so far its been a lot of verbal bullying and a lot of clothes being continuously washed because of people sticking gum to me...
I don't know what else to say.
@1MAP3RS0N
I'm really sorry to hear about the bullying. That is really tough to go through and deal with it.
I'm glad you're seeing a therapist. Have you considered talking to them about being mostly gay?
Don't feel afraid to mention to your girlfriend if you're not feeling okay. You two are there for each other, it's not just about you being there for her. She will be there for you
@wonderousSigns7 I'm trying to see a therapist. As of the other day we are basically more broke than we've ever been. I dont remember if I've told her in the past past or not.
I know for a fact the bullying isn't going to stop wherever i go. This town is full of bullies, even adults. As long as i live here im going to be in pain
@1MAP3RS0N
I'm sorry to hear that. Have you tried seeing a therapist online?
i lost Sonia because of my incapacity to look beyond my own pain. i drove away one of the most precious persons i ever met in my life. i ended up saying "you hurt me" instead of "its okay, come back to me # #" when it was needed the most. yes, i was in pain. but she was in bigger pain. i have no way of even apologising to her because she broke off all channels of communications with me. here i am, ranting on your thread like a meek coward. i just pray she finds immense love and happiness in her life. i pray she finds a better man for her.
@RainMann
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sure she would come back if you talk to her and explain things to her. Even though she broke off communtications, maybe if you're able to, try going to where she lives.
@wonderousSigns7 I can never go to where she lives because i do not know where she lives. i feel so helpless and so dejected. thanks for replying.
@RainMann
As long as you keep trying to contact her, she will notice that. Eventually she will talk to you. She might just need sometime. Of course!
@wonderousSigns7 your enthusiasm to repy to the posts is so incredible. no, i dont think she will notice or read or will come back to me. i have no such positive hope. so there are two options for me, to stop trying or to keep trying forever. i like the forever option.
@RainMann
I think to keep trying is a good option too
@wonderousSigns7 thank you. you are the first person who has said this to me. every single person whom i spoke regarding this has asked me to stop trying. although it doesnt matter to me what others tell me. i follow my heart.
@RainMann
I'm really glad to be able to help!
I really hate myself for being super touchy when talking to my families. Especially when I'm trying to clarify something , I would talking like i'm at the edge of crying tho I don't feel sad at all . My mom has been telling me to stop being weak . It's really troubling when I want to talk with my families . My brother kinda make fun of me and it's really sad cause I know he hates me for being like this. my mom hate this part of me too .
also my procrastination game is getting strong and I hate it . Sometimes I just don't want to start doing things , and just want to sleep and run away from things. this has cause a bad relationship between me and my course mate.
@craybaeplayneedshelp
I'm sorry to hear. That's rough when your familiy doesn't exactly get that you're not weak. You're a very strong person, and I'm glad you shared this.
I've done that many times, there's been times where I just feel like sleeping also and not doing anything. You're not alone. So many struggle with it. But I know you can get through this!
I can't access chats on 7cups (and I got some messages from a listener i'm working with too and I can't read them!). Been emailing Support team and Community team for days and they keep deferring to each other. Guess I have to get used to using the forum for talking/venting space.
@gregariousAcai1247
I'm sorry the website isn't working to well for you. I'm glad you found us here though
@wonderousSigns7 they just got back and said they were willing to make an exception for me though!
@gregariousAcai1247
That's aweosme!!!! I'm so glad
Been in a rut for the past few months, generally not enjoying my day to day life, but things were managable until this weekend. To start things off, thursday a friend of mine went missing. Didnt show up to work, no contact with any family or friends. Then my partner and I got into an argument on saturday that carried over until sunday (typically we get along great, not a bad relationship by any means.) Spent all of sunday miserable feeling sorry about myself only to get into another argument. By the end of the night I was just laying in bed fantacizing about suicide, every minute feeling closer and closer to making the decision to do it. Ended up falling asleep, having nightmares, and woke up to our house being trashed by a pet who escaped from its cage overnight. Showed up to late to work, feeeling like I barely slept, and within an hour of getting to the office I get a message that my friend who went missing was found dead with a self inflicted gunshot.
Honestly just numb at this point, I feel like I should be in tears, but I am just sitting at work, unable to process everything that is happening.
@travander
That sounds really rough right now. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. But dont feel bad about not crying, sometimes we don't know what to do at first. I'll be praying for you.
@wonderousSigns7
thank you, I spent time last night talking with my partner and we resolved our issues. They asked me about my friend and I ended up telling stories and reminiscing for a couple hours. It is still very hard to deal with, but there is some light at the end of the tunnel and I feel myself dealing with it in a healthier way today. Sometimes just talking about the problem helps a lot
@travander
I'm so glad you were able to share things about your friend. I agree, sometimes talking about what you're going through helps
I would love to rant but if I start I fear I will go for days
@BritishSteven
That's why this forum was made. If you like, you can PM instead
Fuk im feeling very unimportant and unappreciated tonight. Having a bbq with my "partner" and his friends. I have been cut off
@sensiblePeach5689
I'm sorry your feeling that way. Have you tried talking to your partner about it?
