You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
I am jealous of people who look forward to weekends. I truly hate weekends because I have to deal with my toxic family. Weekdays are the best because I don't have to deal with anyone. I'm tired of constantly hearing screaming, arguments, and never being listened to because they think everything they believe is "correct". My sister is the worst because she screams at the top of her lungs if she doesn't get her way...she's 35. I truly think she has genuine anger issues but no one ever listens to me when I say she should get help.
I'm just tired of waking up on Saturday's and Sunday's feeling anxious because I know something will happen. I'm tired of staying in my room all day on my days off because I don't want to be around them. I'm tired of my head constantly hurting and having to stay silent to avoid having a heated argument. I just want to enjoy days.
@MoonlightDreamsx
I for one put on the big act of looking forward to the weekend when in fact it's often far from true......you not alone some weekends are better than others . Often I'd rather shut myself away and hide from the world.
Honestly, it is hard, im working with psychologist, and slowly i begin to see, how unhappy i really am and tamed. Alongside with the fact this is really not my fault. That im hurtful to myself and i dont really know myself, what i like what i dont like. I was always forced to do things, and never got to do them because i want to. I dont see myself clearly, i hope with time some day i will. I miss being able to write, knowing what i feel and want, im sad just to think about it.
@Beayay it'll get better 🌼🌼♥️
@wonderousSigns7 I dont feel gr8, absolutely sad
I'd love to rant but how can you rant against the inevitably.
I hate my life. I hate myself!
I have struggled with self confidence all my life. I stuck out in the rural town I lived in. My skin was different, my name was different, the food I ate was different, the shows I watched were different, my clothes were different.
I moved to a city as an adult. It was difficult at first, but I adjusted and learned to love it here. I met the love of my life. His family welcomed me with open arms. Then, we got engaged and started to plan a wedding.
Then a pandemic hit. We were all left exhausted and strained.
Then racial injustice protests erupted. I couldn't sit idly by. This affects my community. I spoke up. My soon to be in-laws did not like that. They despised my thoughts and feelings. How dare I think I have suffered racism. As white people of affluence and economic privilege, they knew people of color who weren't complaining. They had taken diversity trainings at work. They knew apparently everything I was talking about and decided I had never experienced racism. Guess I was wrong to be scarred by my family home being vandalized, and by the names I was called.
It isn't just my future family. My city is now divided and many others feel empowered to yell explicitives as they walk or drive by. They tell us who are asking merely for the same rights to go home, but they come out with their guns demanding the government reopen hair salons.
I am confused. I am hurt. Are we wrong to want equality?
@wonderousSigns7, Hi, Lex. I am so alone and I don't feel like I have much more strength to go on. I keep pushing myself and i know I'm moving in the right direction, but nothing gets better. I got two hours sleep, and woke being terrified of being alone. i'm trying so hard. I don't know what else I can do. I want to take reeling dance classes, but they are closed until the covid restrictions are lifted. I want to meet a mate. Church just opened up again and we have to wear masks and keep our distance from other people. I volunteered at a botanical garden, but their volunteer program is closed unti lthe fall because of covid. I joined AA and went to my first meeting, but it was online and i don't have a cam or a reliable microphone. I am going to have to buy a cam and a mic I guess. I'm poor so any expense is a bummer. I've been in tears off and on for hours. I don't want to cry. I just want people who care about me and love me so I can care about them and love them in return. I have PTSD and OCD and maybe BPD (thats a new suggestion by my therapist). I don't want my life to go on like this. I want it to change but I'm terrified. I'm terrified of all my options. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to move forward anymore. Thanks for listening.
Well, I have been having flashbacks and remember bad memories from back then in the school which is super weird ,I thought I had forgiven and forgotten all those memories,the pain and the people who hurt me .I think this is due to Covid in which you got more time to think there at home (we recently finished the quarantine in my country but still there is the national emergency status and anyway ppl like me are not going out a lot just to stay safe -I live in one of the countries with most cases reported)
I remember almost everything now, I don't like it , it's so weird .sometimes I don't seem to be able to handle it ...I used to have terrible moments with people in the school, that's what I remember and some other episodes at some workplaces ,etc. Something tells to me that those moments are gonna repeat in my life and that makes me feel awful instantly..
@Lifeislikethis145 my brain also reminds me how I was often the last option as a friend when I was a child- teen and it hurts so bad .
It sucks how Covid has hit most of the people so hard in different areas
I'm tired of being fat, lazy and crazy. I'm on a medication that has made me gain 60 lbs. It pretty much works for my bipolar 2. But I thought I had Cushing's disease because my weight is so out of control despite eating 1000 calories on a paleo diet. I'm tired and sore all the time. All the tests come back normal. It's just this medication that I'm cursed to take for the rest of my life. I'm 39, 5'7". I've always been a size ten and now I'm a 2X. As if it weren't hard enough to be labeled crazy, now I'm obese. I'm just so down.
@maggiemay12112011, I know all about gaining weight on meds. I feel for you. Do your docs want you to eat 1000 cals per day? I've read that eating too few calories can send our bodies into a kind of reverse diet; our bodies read too few cals as starving and then slow our metabolism way down. I realize that can't be entirely correct, because people do starve. I'm just asking if you think the 1000 cals per day could be contributing somehow. I wish you the best. :)
@purpleTree4652 I've tried everything to lose weight except exercise really hard. I'm just too tired and my body is so sore. The doctor recommended 1000 calories cutting out all dairy, sugar, processed foods and carbs, which I've done for 6 weeks and haven't lost a pound. My mom is a nurse and she says I need to just accept this body the way it is.
@maggiemay12112011, Because your body is so sore, maybe exercising at all is not an option. Do you have a park you can walk in? Walking is an underestimated exercise. It can be slow and it still builds up muscle and balance and keeps joints lubricated. If the doc suggested 1000 cals per day, then it is an educated bit of advice. Have you thought about a second opinion?
@maggiemay12112011 Get a new doctor. No doctor or nutritionist worth their salt would put a 5'7 person on only 1000 calories.
i just want someone to talk to that I won't burden with my problems. I have always been the one to take care of others and don't want to feel like they need to worry about me as they all have their own problems and I can't help them when I feel so down. @wonderousSigns7
@dawachter9 I feel the same.
@dawachter9 I know exactly how you feel but just remember to anyone that cares for you, you are not a burden to them. Being there when you are down is what friends and family are for.
