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purpleTree4652
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PathStep 123 Compassion hearts18,962 Forum posts3,521 Forum upvotes4,951 Current upvotes4,951 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2024 Member sinceMay 2, 2020
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I'm struggling off and on with drinking again.  I'm still using the harm reduction method, but I want to cut back even further.  I was doing so good for years.  Last fall I was blindsided by so-called family, and fell back on booze to get through.  At least I see that I am not doing as well as I was and am trying to work on it.  Some weeks are harder than others.  





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CRAMPS
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 March 12th
...See more UGH
Basically At the End
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 March 7th
...See more Life seems like a big trap to me.  I have heard of demonic oppression and I am starting to feel if the demons are at it again.  I was basically let go from my job.  They're letting me stay on until May 3rd.  Those ignorant bit**es.  They might as well fire me now.  It might be better.  That way I could focus on the end of my classes and look for a job at the same time.  Instead, I am going to keep working and taking classes and now have to look for a job.  I think my bosses are going to end up firing me.  All  of this means that I might not be able to get student loans to finish school.  And if I can't finish school, I'll have to start to pay back my student loans, and I can't affford that.  All that means I'll have to declare bankruptcy.
Here's what I can't figure out
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 January 20th
...See more Here's what I can't figure out.  How is a person supposed to live and exist with prices the way they are?  I found out i can get a student loan.  I worked out how much I need with my budget.  Now I am going to be taxed.  WTF?  It seems like I'm going backwards financially.  Now I have to do my taxes first and see if I need to borrow more through the student loan just to survive.  JUST TO SURVIVE.  I knew this would happen back when they started raising people's wages to a "living wage."  Now the "living wage" isn't enough for people to live.  It doesn't matter what they put in place, because the rich people will just raise the prices of everything to kick around the poor people.  And they can get away with it.  The poor people will struggle all their lives, and I'm one of them.  This is a repeating circle.  Raise income for people, then they'll raise the prices of everything, then we'll be poor again, then they'll raise income and then they'll raise prices, raise income, raise prices.  Its ridiculous.  I'm going to school to make more money, but I'll have a huge student loan bill, and will be poor again.  But I can't stop going to school, because I'll have to pay my student loan back now, before I get a better paying job, and I can't afford that.  But, us poor people will keep crawling through life.  
I'm still not sure about how to do this
Healthy Living / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 January 6th
...See more I'm sorry.  I've got a million big troubles.  I wish I didn't.  How do I find a healthy buddy?
Grateful, How do I make a healthy living buddy?
Healthy Living / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 January 6th
...See more I'm not sure how to do this.
Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays to Everyone
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 December 25th, 2023
...See more Tonight a babe was born in a manger because no one would give harbor to Mary and Joseph.  In the cold, in hay, with no professionals to help.  Jesus came.  Mary in all her grace and Joseph in all his love, delivered our Lord God.  The Kings from the East knew.  They came and offered gifts.  The animals knew.  They gathered round the good people and showed care.  The angels came and sang praise. Rejoice! Thank you God for Jesus, Mary, and Joseph.  Merry Christmas to all.
Very Afraid I Won't Succeed
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 December 27th, 2023
...See more I'm very afraid I won't get through school or won't get a good job after I graduate.  I had to get a student loan this year and I wanted to make it through school by paying for it myself.  I finally came to terms with needing to borrow money.  Now it seems that next year I will have to borrow even more.  I have two years of school left.  I don't think I'll be able to afford big student loan payments after I graduate.  I'm afraid.  I don't want to go through school and not be able to afford health insurance.  I've gone so many years without it and I need medical care.  I am afraid that I won't even be able to afford an apartment after I graduate.  I don't want to end up homeless.  I have a cat that i will take care of.  i am afraid i am developing dementia.  she just crawled on my lap.  lol  cant type easily.  bye for now
Why do I get so nervous
General Support / by purpleTree4652
Last post
 December 22nd, 2023
...See more Today is my first day off between the semesters.  I wanted to go to grocery stores.  I started getting more and more nervous.  Why do I get so nervous about doing stupid, usual, things?  I only want to go to two stores.  They're close stores that I have been to 50 times.  So what is my problem?  I wish I knew.  I have felt this way for so many years.  I can't stand it.  
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