insights of depression

I remember years back, when i was ?in? depression, whereas people where ?in? the thinking that I was feeling unhappy, fed up, and down. Sure enough theres a fine line between feeling down which we all can experience, to feeling depressed.

When ?in? depression its not going to get better in a matter of hours, or even days, it persistently attacks wrapping you in its shadowy hold, for weeks, months, sometimes years.

A lot of people assume that depression is just people complaining about been down, but imagine like i felt...or didn?t feel at all, that lack of emotional response to anything and that sensation like your being is been pulled away from the flesh and been left on the ground, and nothing anyone does can seem to end that feeling.

Don?t ever say ?cheer up? ?your not depressed just sad? or anything remotely comforting that indicates we ain?t depressed and feeling or not feeling. Want to know the reaction, it isn?t emotionless, its rage and anger from your lack of understanding, frustation, imagine your thoughts just experience the big bang in your mind a billion thoughts at once exploding. ?just imagine yourself on the end of that cos if you piss me off ?in? depression you will not get any sense out of me just my rage and anger at how ignorant you are.

You wouldn?t understand the point of punching walls, because you?ve never had to try to test if your real, or need to know if you have any emotional response left in you, you?ve never felt like the world has just been wiped clean and the bed is sucking you into it and what's the point of getting up because you can?t shake that invisible weight that is like lead weighing you down and moving you know you got to carry it.

Going over and over your thoughts trying to find a reason for your depression, some know their reasons some are confused what they are feeling or not feeling, cos it came on suddenly.

imagine feeling constantly tired and uninterested in the interaction of social things because you just don?t have any drive to do anything, its like you turn up and people go you look terrible but you just don?t feel anything.

Not one depression is the same so you can?t assume that something that works for one will work for another but depression needs to find acceptance before it is cleared from the system i know that much.

I usually find if you weren?t as unlucky as me in having to deal with depression alone through the years that talking to say listeners will help you move through your thoughts and find things that could be affecting you small things can gather into one big thing and leave scars that haven?t healed but been left open.

so if your depressed know that theres people willing to listen and understand and relate, if your not depressed don?t ever say those lines.