thoughts and actions i have, maybe you have similar?

Hi guys,

I just wanted to post about some of the stuff i struggle with, maybe you have similar struggles and would like to share ways you deal with it and keep yourself in a good headspace.

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I have a really hard time dealing with day to day life - it puts me in a consistently flat and gray mood.

I am always in a better mood when there is nothing to do and on the weekends, maybe I struggle through the weeks due to a lack of routine.

My anxiety is always focused around my relationship, my relationship is a direct receiver of my melancholy, this in turn creates instability and makes me so anxious that my partner will leave me and that I am not good enough which fuels a never ending cycle of torment.

Im always so caught in irrational thought which leads to me not being able to focus on anything that I need to get done, struggling with every day life tasks.

Sometimes my moods are so perceptible to people around me that I seem to suck all of the energy out of the room - creating an inhospitable and unwelcoming environment, a projection of my headspace.

I struggle with commitments, I have committed to so many things and then when it comes to the crunch I always bury my head in the sand and believe that everything will be okay - until it isnt and I have a mental breakdown. Its like a mental block that stops me from achieving the things I set out to do.

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If you can contribute any way that would be amazing,

Regards,

Pete