Drowning
I know drowning is a cliche word for depression but it’s seriously how I feel. I have no friends and want them but my anxiety makes it so hard to talk to people that it drains me to be at social events and talk to people. I do online school and am currently under a lot of pressure because of the work I don’t do. My mom and I have a terrible relationship and my dad just yells at me and tells me I’m lazy, disgusting, not going anywhere, etc. they also fight all the time. I smoke my day away and sleep. I just finically started keeping my room clean (it’s cluttered but not disgusting with food , plates, and trash which is the most I’ve done in a month. I have a fear I won’t graduate and I’m so hateful on myself. I had a huge thing when I went to school where I had close friends who betrayed me by talking about me , putting me in groupchats to make fun of me, cornering me at school. It got so bad I had to leave.. I feel so alone. I’m 17. Everyone says I should be grown up by now and responsible. I was diagnosed with severed depression and anxiety but my parents stopped taking me after a few weeks.
please don’t take what your parents say as gospel! you are definitely going to be amazing in the future! the best thing about being at rock bottom is that the only way is up. i feel the same
I appreciate you for telling your experiences and thoughts with us. Yeah, don’t listen to your parents when they say so negative things to you. I’m also sorry to hear that you had to leave school due to bullying.
There comes a point where your parents have to join the choir of voices you can no longer care about. For your own health you need to prioritize the things that you care about and do the best that you can. If you don’t graduate hs through the standard means there are always other avenues for you to follow in order to succeed.
@99tillinfinity
I was left alone by my boyfriend because of my anxiety. I had a crucial life spent. Separated parents, alcoholic dad, and toxic home environment. I have struggled with severe chronic anxiety. Anxiety is the mind’s natural response to pending danger. It is the brain’s way of signaling to the rest of the body that something terrible is about to happen, so we should be alert and prepared. The best solution is to learn more about your anxiety and manage it.
