Feeling lonely

Hello,

Recently I have noticed that I feel lonely and started ruminating about it. I think about how it makes my life less good than it should be and limits it. Like the other day, on vacation, I went alone at the waterpark and couldn't do some slides because it was only for groups of two people. I felt sad.

I then crave social interactions but can't find them. I have no friends, no girlfriend. I have some with my family, but it is mostly via text messages, I don't see them often.

Having a girlfriend is something I especially desire. But I don't know how to do it IRL. I tried online dating, which was difficult, because I either didn't know what to say or kept looking for reasons not to message someone.

I lack human contact.