I dont even know what is wrong anymore
Nothing works, its like im aganist the world for some reason, im always nice and caring never made anyone angry or sad from me, everyone turns to me when they need support and i became everyone shoulder to cry on, but where is mine, never felt a second of peace inside my heart and the one question that pisses me off is why me, after all im doing all that i survived still not a single bit of peace or good luck i mean it has to stop at some point, but maybe that one point will be in the ground, 14 years i havent cried once i feel my heart is going to explode, 14 years when i sleep i dream of that one nightmare, it has to stop, i want out, i want to relax for one minute just quiet air noise, its not gonna happen, im thankful though and grateful, just angry it had to be to have this kind of life experience, its not fair. After all im a man, i will push through it, but a little rest would do at least… i hope, if not then let whatever happens happens, im sick of it
@TheIdea
Sometimes we do not know why....... we trudge through each day or week fighting the same stuff and nothing changes... We need to be the change. break out of our normal and the universe wakes up from us being on auto pilot. if you need someone tell a friend sometimes the people who are always there for others ... the others think you do not need the support.
i think a good cry or even any show of emotion can be like a pressure relief valve. small changes can be good we make our own luck most of the time IMO. I know I did better when I quit being passive and hoping all my good deeds of being there would equal something it only equaled people asking or wanting more of me.
@TheIdea Thank you for being supportive for others. Taking care of yourself is as important too.
Is there something specific about the 14 years? Did something happened 14 years ago that hurt you?
@TheIdea I can see you have a lot of problems in your situation, especially about boundaries. A good, supportive person like you will be exhausted when you spend a lot of time to care outside.
