I feel so lonely I keep reading about personality tests

I don't know who I am anymore. I have a sense of self, but currently it's going through renovation. Lost friends, don't know where I stand in the universe. I know someday I will get the answers but today feels lonely and tough, somehow dragg.ing myself through the day these days. I keep reading about personality types just so I could feel like some day I will turn into someone significant. I do-n't know why people have to live friend less, wh.y it has to be so much work. I do-n't wa-nt to keep watching youtube videos of financially privileged people, I do-n't wa-nt to keep reading reddit posts of first world people, I do-n't wa-nt to drown myself in tv shows and be friends with imaginary characters. I want real human interaction. And it's not possible for me to get, not in a few years. I'm tired of dragg.ing myself, tired of losing things I get comfortable with.