I’m completely alone

i mean it when I say I have no friends at all, the only friend group I ever had were toxic as *** and dropped me completely about a year ago, resulting in me getting bullied by them.

im a freshman in Highschool currently but summer is soon so I’ll be a sophomore. I don’t have anyone at school, I sit alone at the library everyday and I developed severe teacher attachments.

my home life isn’t great either, my older brother is busy and pretty horrible to me, my mom is always angry due to how stressful things for her, I barley see my dad at home and my younger brother is disabled so all and every bit of attention goes to him fairly so.

i feel so alone every single day and there’s absolutely nothing I can do to stop it, I’ve been feeling this way for nearly a year now and everything just keeps repeating like a cycle. Im thinking about ending it all sometimes and sometimes I have severe breakdowns as I’m having one currently.

please just help