Im going through life like a ghost
I am always there for people who need me, I help them, advice them and stuff. But when I need someone to do that for me no ones cares. Im just all alone and empty. My family ignores me. And I have no friends.
I'm sorry, I can listen, I'm a member and I feel the same way lately. I'm here if you need to talk or vent.
I've been though that too, the invisibility feeling, the not having a voice and being used, convenient. It takes a bit of effort but, working in the correct direction it can be solved better and quicker than you think, start talking, talk here, don't let a thing inside you, be the more honest that you can with yourself and your feelings and you will do the same in real life. It really gets better. :)
I find it really sad that the people who are supposed to love you and accept you the most are also the ones who can make you feelthe worst too! What's the sense of being in a family that isn't supportive and doesn't have your back .
Usually it was the same for them, they tried to do better and got crushed by life half-way through it. So, deep inside, they really are there, but communication seems impossible. You see now how it hurts, don't turn into the same, your life is yours and only yours, make something good of it, your family will be proud, you'll see it or not. They are just limited, broken or just incapable of doing better.
You live forward, you understand backwards. I really hope it helps. In what do you need support the most?
I agree, it may have been difficult. What baffles me is when family continues to repeat the cycle of abuse and neglect. Some one should have stepped up and broken the continuous circle of abuse. I really wish someone would have before it got to me. But you know what? It STOPPED at me! I broke the cycle do I guess I should be proud but I am not. There's too much emotional pain inside of me to feel proud!
Your kids are going to have it a lot easier, doesn't that give you a little relief? They didn't get to them. When I see my daughter and how different it is for her, now that she is a teenager, my heart gets so tight... my life sucks, I feel guilty too even if as a kid I was nothing but a victim, but here I am, and my baby knows have her back. To death.