It hurts
Hey guys i'm sorry to bother you, but i don't have anyone else i could go to right now. I've just lost a very important person to me. Or let's say a version of someone which I held on to. We used to be so close, she was my best friend. The first person where I was able to fully be myself. But she's right we grew apart a long time ago and we both tried to hold onto something that wasn't there anymore and that wasn't good for any of us. I guess it was necessary to go different ways at some point. We both relied on each other way too much. But she's found her way and she's happy now and that's all i ever wanted. I'll have to find a way to figure out what to do now and it's not going to be easy. I'm not gonna lie to myself. I've loved her for a very long time, but she's not the girl she used to be anymore, we both have changed. It hurts so much to accept the fact that we've lost what we had and I'll probably need some time to let her go. I just hope that i'll find my own way too. Thanks for reading.
Don't be sorry, it's great to share. I'm glad you had someone you could share so much with even if it's now over. I had a friend like that when I was 7/8, I'm glad to have had it when I did
I have a similar situation. I was best friends with a girl for 7 years but this year she got colder to me. She was very distant and clearly trying to find new friends, always acting like she barely knows me, is embarrassed of me, leaving me out of things on purpose and pointing out my flaws to others. We have been through so much together, and have always been there for each other. Although I have many friends, it still hurt extremely bad when she was doing that. I felt empty and worthless. I was also angry at her, but now I think that it's my fault. Growing up, I was not a always a good friend, perhaps even toxic at times. I still love her very much, but I am now numb to this situation. Trust me, it gets better. Life is so beautiful and spontaneous, I know for a fact that you will meet, get to know and grow close with new amazing and kind people.
Thank you. I guess that deep down i know, but it's kinda hard to realize that it's over. I just thought it will always be us against the world. I really thought that i had found someone who'd stay forever. But after all everything has to find an end somewhere i guess. "forever" is like a promised fairytale, everybody dreams of it but in the end, it isn't real.
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I too hope you feel better!