My 13
- Because im tired of not having a job
- Because I can’t keep a *** job even tho I mean well.. people just don’t like me
- because I trigger people for just being me
- Because I don’t have a car and no one knows how hard that’s been as I get older and have more responsibilities
- Because I don’t have a bf .. well someone who loves me and knows me intimately
- Because i am constantly judged, silenced and misunderstood by the same people, family im forced to live with
- Because I have no one no girls to actually laugh or cry with
- Because even the cats don’t love me unless I have something to offer them
- Because I have no idea how im gonna move away and out of this house without struggling to pay my own bills
- Because there’s so much I have and wanted to get done for dreams/goals future plans and haven’t done any of it
- Because my nervous system is fried and I can’t trust anyone anymore
- Because God is always way too silent
- Because it’s so hard for me to not care but so easy for everyone else not to the world is so cold and everyone claims their real online but never show it in the moment in person
- Because im running out of money which means im stuck home and it kills
- Because im tired of waiting always waiting
*** that’s 15/13 hope their not too shallow im just so over this life
@lovingCup504
This does not sound shallow at all. It sounds like you are carrying job stress, money pressure, loneliness, feeling misunderstood at home, and being tired of waiting for things to change. That is a lot for one person to hold. I can’t fix all of it, but I can listen with you for a while. When you say you are “so over this life,” are you safe right now?
@lovingCup504 The heaviness is real.
Are you safe? If not, please reach out to 7cups.com/crisis or https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
Would there be something you enjoy? Like sun? Warm tea? Soft blanket?
spirit hugs 💙
I'm sorry you have so much going on 💙 15/13, no wonder you're tired
Please keep going 💙 don't give up, this too shall pass 💙