Vent

Hey, I know the feeling, it's hard to live with. Thanks for posting and sharing your feelings, I'm glad you did. Some of what you've mentioned is about looks, I think. Some of it is maybe more internal shame, like the feeling of being filthy. But in the end, it's all mixed together, is that right?

I know you've created this post to vent and your feelings are OK to feel. But for me, it's helpful to think that my feelings about myself aren't necessarily how others feel about me. So even if I consider myself ugly, people usually don't even notice the things I don't like about myself. From your post, you sound like a nice person to me, although I don't know you. It's brave to post your feelings like this too.

Also, for how you feel about yourself, it might help to remember that beauty isn't just in looks. It's also in what you do and how you treat others. If you consider yourself ugly in that you've done bad things, then there's always a way to change, though it might not be easy.

If your feelings about your looks are because of how others have treated you, it might be helpful to remember that sometimes people are just cruel, thoughtless, or both. And those actions are their own ugliness to deal with, not yours.

I hope this doesn't come across as preachy and maybe helps you feel better. If you feel like this again and want to vent or just chat, I hope youll post again or reach out to a listener here, if not a loved one. Have a good day!