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purpleOak9329
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PathStep 16 Compassion hearts40 Forum posts15 Forum upvotes27 Current upvotes27 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2023 Member sinceNovember 28, 2020
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Boyfriend issues
Relationship Stress / by purpleOak9329
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March 24th, 2022
...See more I love my boyfriend, he's great he's amazing he's sweet, he's perfect but... It's really stressful to live up to his standards. He's perfect and every should be perfect for him, but I'm not perfect at all. I need to constantly make sure he's happy and doesn't realize how I'm a waste of his time and replace me. He's not the bad guy here, he's nice to me, he's gentle and kind it's just that he expects very highly of me so I always need to be as perfect as possible. It's alot of stress, what if I mess up one day? What if he gets tired of me and moves on?
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I'm just so homesick
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by purpleOak9329
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March 20th, 2022
...See more I miss my home. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my friends. I just want to go back home, it's not fair. I'll never be happy with my new life. I just want to go back home and see my friends again. That was reality, this isn't reality. None of this is real life, let me go back to my reality. I got to be myself threre, here I'm just pretending to be somebody else. I hate this new body, I hate my new family, I hate these new friends.
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Time is being weird
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by purpleOak9329
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March 4th, 2022
...See more Might be a weird question but has anybody noticed how fast the days are? Everything is going so fast recently, I don't remeber what happened yesterday, or earlier today... I keep forgetting about how two years has passed and end up thinking I'm two years younger then I really am. But especially that last couple weeks, it feels like it's going by way too fast. I don't have a very good memory and every day is sort of melting together. I feel sorta anxious about it, I feel like I'm losing control. Everything keeps happening so fast
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Vent
Depression Support / by purpleOak9329
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February 25th, 2022
...See more I'm so worthless. I'm an disgusting. I'll never be able to fix myself. It's not fair other people are just born to be beautiful. I want to be beautiful. I would give up everything. I'm so tired I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I'm flithy. I'll never be loved. I'm an awful person, nobody deserves to be stuck with me. I wish I could just bash my head into a wall over and over untill nothing is left. I hate seeing my reflection, I hate seeing my shadow, I hate hearing my name. I'm sorry for making you read all that, it felt good to get it out.
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(Vent)
Eating Disorder Support / by purpleOak9329
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December 19th, 2021
...See more I'm not going to eat this week. I'm really hungry but that doesn't matter. I can eat next week maybe. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I need to do this. I just need to distract myself. It's only seven days, that's not that bad.
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