need help with feeling worthless and loneliness
hello. so i have been having depression for a year now and have had a lot of problems. right now i just don't feel loved by anyone or even feel like i even matter to anyone :( please anyone help me. i have been having a bad time already and have been feeling worthless a lot.
hi so i just need help cuz i have like a 1000 things on my mind
hi ppl so i am a depressed 14 year trans dude
i havent come out to anyone except online(mostly 7 cups)
i am a indian too which only makes stuff more harder
my parents taunt me alot and its like mental torture for me when i am around them
which i always am
i dont have any getaway
covid made stuff sooo bad
i have been stuck with my parents and my bro for a whole year now and tbh i feel like i have gone completely crazy
idk how anything is gonna get better
i really have no hope in life
i no exceptation from life
i really feel like eveyone is gonna be better off without me
idk what i am doing at all
its like i am stuck in this cycle
get up , get scolded , act like a girl , hate my myself my fucking life everything , gwt scolded , cry , sleep
obsiouvly i eat and drink and breathe but all of it is like default mode
i never feel like doing anything at all
anyway this is my fuckig shiity life so if u can helpme help me
@Arnav012568
Ahh, I am sorry to hear what you are going though. It looks like you are suffering from very extreme depression. Maybe, try going to therapy or something if it is available for you.
@Arnav012568 i am so sorry to hear that :( maybe a thearpist can help you or try talking to a listener, i am just a normal person and cannot really say much because i am also having an awful day.
@Arnav012568 yoo dont think negative dont think that nobody needs you thats kinda not true i mean look you need to know who you are and to understand your self who cares what other think there will alweys be that somebody who things bad of you i know this from my exp.Anyway dont think about doing something bad to your self that will not solve noting the best you can do is wait for it to change i mean i know it looks like hell right now but it cant be forever like that . my advice is that you keep living they way you want to live .nobody gets the right to say that you are bad or something just bcs you are living how you like. im not saying to ignore them but like dont get hurt bcs of them i mean its not fair to be hurt just becose of somebody else wont you agree ? also you are 14 and when you get thro evrything trust me it will be much better. I mean you know that if you get to the botom of something you can only go up ^^
yo turtle and tree lets make discord group togeter or at least try to i mean whats the worst that can happen cmonnnnnn tree try it . at least for me :c you can leave discord after wards if you dont like it.
@Teo855 worst case scenario i am the only one that gets banned and you dont like discord in the end. so try it pleaseeeeee of meh ^^
@Teo855 hello. i am sorry but right now i am just feeling seriously bad. i can't. i am really sorry. i am just not in the mood or even can do that. i am sorry
@unassumingTree5669
What? Does this person keep asking?
@reliableTurtle1457 oke sorry i understand
@unassumingTree5669 yo whats wrong ? :c
@Teo855 just having a bad day.
@unassumingTree5669 oke :c I understand
@Teo855 thank you, take care and have an amazing day <3
@unassumingTree5669
Sorry to say this but this persons seems a bit off to me.
@reliableTurtle1457 it's okay really. i don't mind it. right now though. i just feel like i should be making myself busy because i am not feeling the best
@unassumingTree5669
I don't know, He just comes across as a little weird. The way he keeps asking for you to join discord and me.
@reliableTurtle1457 i believe he has my problem as well so i think he just wants friends. at least that how i think about it.
@unassumingTree5669
Ok, but I am a big skeptical about it.
@reliableTurtle1457 fair enough. well i will sleeping now. have a great day to both of you. take care, <3
@unassumingTree5669
Yes, you too. Goodnight. :)
@unassumingTree5669 good night
@unassumingTree5669
Just something I found - https://jim-flannery.com/2018/08/21/discovered-7cups-hacking-own-website-trick-depressed-people/
@reliableTurtle1457 wow that is intresting. what do you think about this turtle ?
@Teo855
Very shocking.
@reliableTurtle1457 welp to be honest i dont like this site that much it kinda took somebody i cared about awey long story...
but still this is kinda noting i mean even if it targets you for addvertizing its kinda notining special (sorry for bad speling )
@Teo855 welp no point in not telling the hole story. welp i kinda meet somebody on this site i will not tell her name but she was the best person i even knowed after talking a lot we kinda started to catch feelings for each other honesly a lot happend but like in the end she just dispired with out of word just poof i didnt even say goodbye. later her profile was missing from the site and even if when i find it i could not open it. my guess is that she got banned . I kinda miss her still but more thing about what she thinks i mean i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye ... anyway i am still glad i meet her she made me happy even when i was sad she changed me for better ^^
i know i didnt have a need to tell you this story and that you will say o thats sad or hope you find her like evrybody sayed i just wanted to share it thats all. welp still if you have something to say about it do so i wanna know.
also yea im still at risk to get banned and honesly dating rule sucks >:c
@Teo855 i can see somebody up voted it who did it i wanna know ?
@Teo855 sorry to hear that. Hope you will get better soon about it and sorry that you had to talk about it. Hope you will have a great day <3
@unassumingTree5669
Just wondering if you are one of those workers of 7 cups.
@Teo855
That is js just Wow. This site to me always came across as a little suspicious.
@Teo855
Just what if Unassuming is one of the people behind 7 cups. It is weird because he hasn't even pressed that link and then start apologizing in a dismissive way to the fact there is things wrong with 7 cups.
@reliableTurtle1457 turtle. You really like assuming stuff don't you? I was just trying to be nice. That is all.
@unassumingTree5669
I am sorry that I keep making assumption like that. Did you press the link though? There is so much evidence about 7 cups.
@reliableTurtle1457 it's okay and no I didn't. Personally I am way too busy right now to even think about doing that or stuff
@unassumingTree5669
Ok, but those are real proper evidence found about 7 cups though. Those are not just assumptions.
@reliableTurtle1457 evidence about what though?
@unassumingTree5669
You will see later once you pressed the link.
@unassumingTree5669
Also, I am sorry that I came across as harsh and rude. I don't really mean to. It is just a bunch of theories really. This is not meant to be put against you. I hope you have a nice day. 
@reliableTurtle1457 I see :) it's okay. well have An amazing day too and I will check that link out later. Goodbye! ❤️❤️❤️
@unassumingTree5669
Sorry, I have been feeling a bit emotional. I was crying on my bed.
@reliableTurtle1457 that is okay. I hope you do get better soon. Maybe you should talk to a listener about it😊❤️
@unassumingTree5669
Thank you so much. I have been struggling with these listeners though and the site the link leads to proves that there is stuff happening in this site we don't know about.
@reliableTurtle1457 i just saw the link and i am not even sure what to say. i never ever got that responed. it could be fake but i don't know. i just feel weird about it. anyway i wish i could have helped but i can't :( please try your best to get help if it from this site or not. have an amazing day! <3
@unassumingTree5669
Yes, I hope you do too. It is definitely not fake though. I will promise to get help else where.
@reliableTurtle1457 well i am really not sure what to say. hope you do get better. have an amazing day <3
@unassumingTree5669
I will, Just trying to warn you about this. Anyway, I do hope you have a lovely day and I hope you find other ways to feel better about yourself.
@reliableTurtle1457 thank you for the warning but i am not sure what i can even really do. i mean i live in a poor place so i don't have use credit cards. you too! take care and stay safe! <3
@unassumingTree5669
Yes, Thank you so much and I hope you stay safe as well.
@reliableTurtle1457 you too! <3 <3 <3
@unassumingTree5669 you two kiss NOWWW. hahaha jk jk im happy that you guys are happy and having a great day ^^
@Teo855 thank you! Hope too will have a great day! Goodbye! ❤️❤️😊
@unassumingTree5669
Goodbye. and I am just warning you of this site just for you to be safe.
@unassumingTree5669
And that other guy of course.
@reliableTurtle1457 thank you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@unassumingTree5669
To help you. This sounds a bit crazy but you could try to immigrate to Europe but I don't know, It can be extremely risky and I don't know if they are allowing more people here. It is kinda worth the risk sometimes. Just the sea is very dangerous for immigrants. You just need to have a passport or something. I just don't know how you will get across the borders.
@reliableTurtle1457 maybe in the future hopefully. thank you for trying to help anyway <3
@unassumingTree5669
Yes, Maybe in the future. But I don't how you are going to get passed security. I would hope you make it ok.
@unassumingTree5669
Thank you as well.
@unassumingTree5669
I am sorry I kept making assumption about things. I think I upset you too much. I really didn't mean to upset you. I think you are a kind and caring person. I don't know if you are still feeling angry. It just seems like it.
@unassumingTree5669
You must be feeling very upset again. I am sorry that you are upset. Really, I don't know what I did wrong. I really done it. I went too harsh on you and now I am feeling very guilty.
@unassumingTree5669
I hope you didn't go and kill yourself. This just isn't normal.
@reliableTurtle1457 hello. No I am not upset about you. I have been just really busy. Because of life and all. You don't need to make assumptions or anything like that. And don't worry about me :)
@unassumingTree5669
Ok, I think I just over react, I am happy that your here. :)
@Teo855
We'll actually, I do catch feelings for him a bit. No I am joking.
@reliableTurtle1457 honesly im glad to hear it ^^
@reliableTurtle1457 o you are joking nvm then xd
@Teo855
Yes, I am I love with him a bit. I am joking again.
@unassumingTree5669
Hey, I understand how you are feeling at the moment. Depression can really cause you to have a lot of negative thoughts leading you to a downward spiral. It can take years until you get better but hopefully you will improve over time it it will become more simple. Don't give up just yet, You still got a life ahead of you and maybe a good future if you work hard enough. Just keep going and going, You will eventually get there, You are doing the right thing at the moment and it may help you in the long run if you dedicate yourself into education and things. It will feel rewarding once you get through things that are tough. Motivation is key to success and so is dedication.
@reservedWater5739 yea hes right tho ^^
@reservedWater5739 hello. Thank you so much for the kind words. I have been trying but it's just so so hard for me and I just cannot ever feel better even when I try.
@unassumingTree5669 nah dont worry tree evrybody got a chance to be happy :)
@Teo855 thanks ❤️❤️
@unassumingTree5669
You will eventually. :) It is going to be very tough but is worth it in the end.
@reservedWater5739 I hope so too. I just wish I could have been happier a lot sooner.
@unassumingTree5669
Aww, Don't worry about it. :) What matters most is now and what is going to happen in the future. :)
@reservedWater5739 yeah I guess your right. I just not even sure what to do nowadays.
@unassumingTree5669
Just keep going and going no matter how hard things get. That is the key to success and happiness. Try and get through education and maybe things will get better for you in the future. I wish you good luck also. :)
@reservedWater5739 thank you! I will try my best :) thank so much and I also wish you have an amazing day! ❤️❤️😊
@unassumingTree5669
Yes, That's the spirit. :)
@reservedWater5739 thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
@reservedWater5739 i can agree from my personal experience too ^^
@Teo855 I see. Well thanks❤️❤️☺️
@unassumingTree5669 yo did anything worked that you tryed at least a bit ?
@Teo855 no not really.
@unassumingTree5669
Maybe you can get some new hobbies such as swimming or riding a bike, go to therapy, go for a walk, buy something to eat.
@reservedWater5739 i have tried new hobbies and also old hobbies, none really worked and therapy is not an option.
@unassumingTree5669
You could try, Cycling, walking, swimming, badminton, tennis, football, reading, board games, bowling, gaming, racing, TV, Netflix, hiking, Music, Star gazing, Cinima, Musical instruments, Watching Documentries, Museums, Art, Travelling, Shopping, Kiting, Calling friends, trampolining, Karate, Joining a club, Drama, Dancing, Going to a concert or play, Animal zoos, Chores, Going to the pub, Stamps, Creating paper airoplanes, Making cards, Smoking, Comics and magazines,
@reservedWater5739 thank you for trying but i am not interested in most of these or i already do them.
@unassumingTree5669
Have you tried going to therapy or a Docters?
@reservedWater5739 no. it's not an option for me
@unassumingTree5669
Oh, There is therapy available online though. It usually costs a lot less than real therapy and can be just as helpful.
@unassumingTree5669
And so does 7 cups.
@reservedWater5739 in where i live we don't use credit cards.
@unassumingTree5669
Oh, That is a shame, I don't know what else to suggest really.
@reservedWater5739 it's okay. i don't know either. thank you for trying <3
@unassumingTree5669
Awww, I really like your profile picture. Your smile is so cute and so are your blushing cheeks. Aww, It makes me want to blush a bit.
@unassumingTree5669 are you still there ?
@unassumingTree5669
I tried to create bonds with people and failed miserably. Instead, It lead me to want to hurt people because I have 0 bonds towards anyone and now I ended up getting myself into a lot of arguments. I threw a lot of insults toward people because I felt like these people will hate me anyway. Now I am getting lots of hate left right and centre. I desperately want to connect with people but I can't. I feel so isolated there is nothing I can do to fix my problems. Everything I try just makes the whole situation worse and I and I get no forgiveness from people anymore even when I apologize to them. I have nobody to speak to and people just ignore me now. :(
@unassumingTree5669
I had it with this site. Those listeners are hard to talk to and one of them just laughed at my problems and then sent some heartless messages. This site isn't meant to judge you like that. I am too afraid to speak to listeners now. Those listeners ghost you most of the time. I don't like the way this site is set up. I wished I had someone proper to speak to.
And to be fair if you look at the one way you can see the world as a game,it doesnt wait for you around but you still play a role in it, even if nothing really mathers you are still there in the game hehe 
.Feeling happy is what you wanna do right,maybe you need to pass the lvl frist to do that.Explain what makes you feel "not happy" about your self? i could give you a advice how to fix it or make it not a problem so it dont hold you down. ( this looking a world as a game seems dumb i know but the more you look the more it makes sense >:3)
@unassumingTree5669
I feel like I been stuck in this Covid19 for such a long time and I have nobody to speak to. I been trapped in this cycle where I am stuck in my room everyday and can't get out of the house. I recently gone back to school one day a week and the rest is virtual. I wish to meet people outside my house but there is nowhere where I can make friends. It feels like a decade now since the Corona has first started to spread and we all went into lockdown. My health is getting really poor and there is nothing I can do about it.
@unassumingTree5669
Hey there, I understand your frustration with loneliness. It can be a hard thing to deal with. A lot of people suffer from the same thing here. If it's ok with you, you could try and join a social club or go and see a therapists. If you feel worthless, try and remind yourself how far you gotten in life under all this pressure. Think of goals and what you want to do in the future. That is all I can say really.