sad

i want to see the young me enjoying life, i want to see her happy, loved. i want a hug from her. she must be so sweet. i miss her. that cute little kid. 
i dont think, the way i am, i can ever be able to find real love or any real connection, its all one character to another im jumping to make acquaintance with whoever i feel like. except i cant maintain a character for long its depressing i hate it. hate looking at them and thinking how they not know the real me how all they know about is fake, how they think im so cool and just their copy perhaps a match made in heaven, a godly coincidence. hate it cant change it. its addictive