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Try to branch out into other areas or groups! Join different clubs and maybe try something new, like an art, music, crafts class! Will get you something different to talk about and more people to connect with! Been there, not good, but eventually things will get better!
And try to think about all the little things that tou actually like about yourself. Constantly focusing on your faults will only leave you feeling down or worthless and that's a lie! Nobody it worthless
@potatoes239 I hear you. High School can be tough to get through when you don't feel like you belong in any of the groups. Think of it as a lottery of acceptance, it doesn't mean anything that you haven't found your place yet and try not to be so hard on yourself. Everyone in High School is trying on an identity, seeing how it fits, watching how their peers react. Despite how some of your classmates may behave or seem, nobody has themselves figured out and everyone is searching for their identity.
But I understand that while High School is a tiny part of your life, right now it is life. A lot can change in a year or two, keep your eyes open for an opportunity where you can shine.
I was a weird kid. I did not find my place in school but fortunately others my age liked me for being weird - outside of school. I found my place in activities after school and there are many for you to consider: volunteering, religious youth groups, clubs (nature, photography, athletics, board/role playing games), boy/girl scouts), public service and paid work - all places you can meet and make friends.
For right now, you can be yourself here. Posting about your frustration or your sadness or whatever is totally fine, if you feel ready to share some more, then open up and let it out.
@potatoes239
What if you focused on what you have to offer the world? I can tell just from this posting that you are smart, unafraid to go into the unknown, and willing to examine your psyche. What if you just focused on what YOU bring to the table? Concentrate on building skills, learning, being open to the world. Yes, you may end up alone - we are all alone with ourselves one way or another. If you can get past that existential roadblock, you will learn that YOU are enough for yourself! Not that we can't have a circle of friends/family. But they should be people deserving of you and all you bring to the relationships.