One difficult life situation I am facing right now is....
Same as always.
Worried about everything.
My relationship
waking up every day and enduring the monotonous sterile deadness of what my life has become. an endless blur of days with no variation, no progression, no momentum, no purpose, no happiness. the ruins and shambles of a life that once had an actual structure and foundation and a development. there are no possibilities left. i am extremely extremely extremely lonely. my brain doesnt work the way it used to. i take 3 meds a day, one for depression, one for mood stabilizing, and then the worst of them for my adhd, addictive stimulant that i now depend on for the smallest boost in my mental state while is just a brief inflation of perspective and a fleeting hint of something to arouse me out of this coma-- but it never happens. i am braindead. torpid beyond repair. i feel no joy. im garbage. im back at my parents and 34 years old, im so pathetic and have zerofuckingclue how thefuckiwillever get out of here. i dont know how to save myself. ive deteriorated into a leprous squalid degenerate alive only in the most basic technical sense. dont know how to pray. dont see plan for my life. cant quit smoke cigarettes and i dont have motivation to because i dont want to live a long life as there is absolutely nothing at all that gives me the smallest bit of hope for the future. im absolutely miserable and worthless and i hate everything and want to just stop existing i want to have a heart attack i want to fall asleep and neverwakeupagain fuckeverything fuckmypointlessemptylife
@hollowman84
your life isnt pointless.
Iknowshitreallyfucking sucks most of the time, I do. I promise. Im addicted to xanax to try and keep myself calm, and it doesnt even do that anymore, just keeps me normal. I married my abusive husband and mylifewenttoshit. He has another woman and beats the hell out of me and I allow it because I have no one else. So neither of us are working, and for the most part dont leave the house at all anymore. Its become sort of a tomb.
We live off my inheritance since everyone that was important died. I dont stop smoking ever lol.
You just struck a cord with me idk.
i feel suck between a rock and a hard place constantly and have no idea where my life is going now, but I try to hold on to a tiny little glimmer I have that some how someway it will improve or Ill get my self out eventually and find some sort of happiness because there is none where I am.
My eating disorder is getting worse. I want to get better but it
@KiiwiiGreen1 if you ever need to talk, i
Dealing with my spouse who drinks and acts like a jerk. I am constantly feeling like I
Trying to get over my guilt from my childhood. It just haunt me when I think I am getting on with life.
I feel rejected and lost because of my mental health struggles. Its hard when others turn on you and you are left feeling angry alone sad and depressed
My mom's in a coma because she jumped out a window and I don't know how to handle my emotions. For a few days I was perfectly fine but today I've cried twice. I've been really angry and edgy since it happened and even though I wasn't there I see her body in my eyelids.
Its been three years since I have been in a goid soils relationship. I was talking to a guy who I thought I was clicking with, in fact, I was clicking so well I had the same feeling with him that first felt for my ex, that feeling hadn't happened to since 2012 before my depression killed.
Then the next day he ghosted me. Today I saw him online but he wouldn't message me. . . He should be be polite enough to say why he was interested and he changed his mind.,
My husband was in a car accident very recently and he's currently in hospital, I'm really worried and upset (we've only been married for 2 months).