One thing I always overthink is....

What others think of me.

Is how I feel about myself, I feel that I am a failure and allowed my ex to take advanced of me. He was much younger and I made excuses for him cheating and lying. Now that has moved on I feel debated, angry and ashamed with myself. I now need him emotionally but more financially that which we had plan he would take care of us. But I do not feel safe, any security and defenetly dis- respected. I feel I let him take advantage of me, made me into a joke to others, made me hate myself . I have up friends and family for him... now I am even more alone .

How different my life would be if I hadn't of suffered.

All the things that could go wrong..

I have taught myself not to cry because of being made fun of and told I'm ugly when I cry or had a panic attack. I think others should know it's ok to cry and cling to; if they make you feel better, then be with them. Don't let those who treat you badly choosse what you need to act like.

Am i pretty enough to face many people?

Things that coukd go wrong with my family, especially my son and work. 😞

Whether anyone actually likes me.

bills

Work relationships, if people like me.