One thing that triggers my depression is....

My kids fighting or my oldests constant defiance

Feeling out of control, not feeling appreciated for my hard work

Feeling as though I'm not enough.

Being/feeling like I'm being ignored.

Stress/pressure to do. It builds up and builds up and makes my depression worse until I have a breakdown. Then I feel like shit for a few days, just emotionally drained and battered. I may spring back with renewed energy, but its a wracking experience. Im down to only having one every three months. At my worst in college I was having one a week.

Being asked if I have a job or a boyfriend. Aka two things that I want badly that are very out of reach as of now.

Thinking about the future. I'm afraid I'm going to end up alone or trapped in a life I get little to no joy out of.

Seeing someone that has done better in life than me, with less things. Seeing someone that can truly manage life without whining so much.

My kids not helping in the house

Knowing how much I still have to get done.