Self Compassion

I've been trying to practice self compassion, but today I'm feeling very depressed and I'm full of self loathing and hateful thoughts. I'm not sure what to do to pull myself out of this headspace. My partner won't speak to me and says they can't help me. Which just makes me hate myself even more and feel completely alone, letting my thoughts run wild. I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm in a panic attack I can't seem to shake mixed with a deep depression and self hatred. I just don't know what to do.. I feel lost and alone inside my head paralyzed by anxiety and depression. I tried to watch TV and play games but I just can't focus on anything aside from the overwhelming feelings and thoughts in my head. I figured if I could share this it might take some of the weight of my chest.