The Depression Dictionary

"Every time you ask I pretend I'm okay"

To that thug who murdered two women the other day.

Be aware of the world of the now. Be aware of what makes people unhappy.

Never announce that there is a different reason of unhappiness than criminality and crimes around a moral person.

Depression also feels like being permanently drunk. Out of focus, glazed over, not fully present.

When my depression is triggered I feel like there is nothing in my mind no spark to make my body move or care about things I just want to sleep until I die.

There is this knot in my stomach that wont go away and makes me feel so utterly lonely most of the time, as if there is no happiness left for me

for me is insomnia, listlessness, wanting to be apart of something but unable to participate. its putting on a happy smile and saying my day is going ok. it's an ever feeling of loneliness.

I cant sleep. I snap at everyone for no reason. I feel lonely when Im with people. I have panic attacks daily. I worry about worrying. My brain makes me do things I dont want to.

Hello, Kind People Here On 7 Cups,

Today, my post will be about betrayal from a friend. Take my word: it can be really painful.

Me and my friend Kacidy, we were friends since 1st Grade. We spent all of our days together. First at her house, then we went to school. In the same class! And after school, we did our homework together. We were so close, that sometimes, I thought we were the same person! It went on until we went to middle school. Obviously together. At the beginning of 7th Grade, I realized that I wasn't being who I was anymore. I was acting more depressed, sensitive, and no one seemed to care! Not even Kacidy noticed. I felt myself far away from happiness. I wasn't super happy, or successful. Just an average girl with anxiety. Some things changed. Kacidy started to have her own circle of friends. Where I was not included. I felt that she was becoming more distant and careless. Because she was trying to keep some balance between me and her friends, and she didn't want to offend me. Then one day, the system boiled down to her choosing. We were at the movies together and her new friend was there, too. I couldn't imagine the movie without my friend: and by saying, that she was kinda part of my family. But when I tried to talk to her, she ignored me. When the movie began to start, my friend asked me what was wrong. I couldn't tell her, she may not understand! Then, Kacidy said to me, "Sorry Morgan. But would you mind if I'd missed this one? My other friend is right here next to me and we barely talk. We'll be hanging out tomorrow at lunch, maybe you can meet me there!" Well, all of her other friends were invited. So I was excluded. It was a heavy blow. I felt lonely for the first time in my life. Needless to say, my friend gladly dedicated more time to her new friends. Until the point where we barely spoke a kind word to each other in a whole week! It was the ultimate breakdown. I had tried to talk to her and try to tell her how I feel. How much I wanted her to be my friend again. I was hoping we could patch things up! But, i didnt work. Have emailed her so many times and she never responded. I tried to hang out with her, but she locks me out of her room and talks and laughs with my sister. Since Kacidy and I were barely friends anymore, I never had any other close friends I could stick to. So for months, I cried alone. Walked alone. Even had my lunch alone. I didnt know what to do. I know that you're gonna say that she isnt a real friend and that I should make new ones, but there are no other friends that I have. People at my school tease me constantly. I have never met one person in my life besides Kacidy that was so nice to me, and it would be very hard to let her go. As much as she is ignoring me, she did hug me when I cried. I really dont know what to do.

Depression to me is making the same bad choices and living with the consequences. Ive made too many mistakes and now Im suffering. I dont know how much more I can take.

I know suicide isnt an option but Im at the end of my rope.

Someone once said "Comparing sadness and depression is like saying that getting wet and drowning are the same thing"

Depression to me is like falling. There's no bottom, you just keep falling, your stomach hurts, you close your eyes because you don't want to see anything, you don't want to hear anything. You need to be alone yet want someone to hold you. You're empty and yet full of crippling pain, your numb yet overly sensitized to every sensation.