Today my depression is at a...
On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the worst, where would you rank your depression?
What is one thing you can do today to find some joy? Even if it is just for a moment?
10
I have no money or family to share a Thanksgiving meal with today and my back pain makes it hard walking in the snow. I hate Utah right now..
@bgdave
When I am alone on a holiday when I want to be with people and can't I take some of the pressure off and remind myself that it is just thursday of another week. I is not quite denial. It is reframing your thinking.
Frustration is only that. See it for what it is. You have ventilated about how you feel. That is good. I remind myself that loneliness hurts but it is not deadly. You will get throught this.
Take a sick day if you must. Take easy on yourself as you would if you were physically ill. Treat yourself nice. today. I share your disappoint that you are alone and cannot change that. What can you change? Your thinking and what you do. Those are in your control.
I hope something unexpected happens to bring you relief.
Today I've started off at 2. But it's going up.
9 uncontrollable the ocd is getting bad trying to focus on other things anyone any suggestions on what to do
Medium to high
@Tinycupcake
Hang in there, Treat yourself nice. today.
My depression is at a 10. between being neglected and the thought of dying a alone. I just dont know how to manage myself anymore everybody i talk to doesnt care about how i feel anymore so at this point I just wanna give up and die alone.I missed my therapy appointment and its been really messing with me ever since and now im suffering from 3 weeks of anxiety and major depression and its been really tough. I cry myself to sleep everyday and just hope that I wont fall apart at school and just breakdown at home.Im tired of suffering it hurts me and is preventing me froma happier lifestyle. My parents dont care about whats hurting me and im starting to believe that no matter what im sad about no one will bother to listens to me in the real world, so i make up a fake one in my head and just hope its enough to cancel out this cruel,harsh place that I have to face known as reality.
sorry for this being all over the place im just feeling really down
8 - Everything feels so hopeless
11
My depression seems to be taking on new levels. I just want to be happy.
2 it feels like i have got things to be worried about but i will deal with them when i can don't know how long the calm will last for only a matter of time before someone opens their email one person for his friends he is making enemies out of me shame on him they know what they do is not on but still do it bullies that's what it is with them doing it for years now i finally flipped with them
12 I feel like I am on a white knuckler ride and have no safety restraints. I am out of one of my antidepressants and my anxiety medications and have no money to get refills. I am trying to not give up on life but it feels like the universe is not supporting my life. I have been through a lot of tough times in my life but as I get older and am alone it seems 10 times harder to keep hope alive. I spent Thanksgiving alone and had no money so I ate what I could. The memories of life when my mother was alive just made me cry. I have struggled during this time of year since 2002 when we lost her to ALS. My birthday is tomorrow I will turn 56 and wish I had something to be happy about. I wish I had money to enjoy something nice with someone. Instead I am fighting with my inner demons to not go to the dark place and wish my life was over. I pray for love and strength and health in mind and body. I pray to stay warm and to have food to eat. I pray the universe has mercy on my life. I am not asking for too much....just to be ok. I try not to cry but I am falling apart and we live in a cruel world that really doesn
@bgdave
dave,
Please dont be sad. Do you qualify for assistance for your medication?
@goldenDay8284 no I don
@bgdave
I hear you. You are sad, depressed, lonely, and poor. You are trying to be grateful and positive thoughts but you have a mental illness that is lying to you. Reality is not what you feel. Your feelings do not define what is happening. I wish I had the strength to say more. I hear you.
You have shelter? And some food. Count that enough for today.
I'm tired. I'm going to sleep. Take care of yourself.
@BadmattDillon1880
Thank you for your kindness and taking the time to reach out. I hope you rest well Matt....
