Why I find it hard to love myself?
I always try to escape from myself, from my thoughts by keeping myself busy in other things like watching movies, web series, sleeping, etc. Whenever I sit idle, all the negative thoughts start bombarding in my mind. I have zero confidence on me. I always doubt myself. I don't know how to fix it?
@independentPond4260 during an episode of depression I find it practically impossible to be kind to myself. So when it starts lifting (this week I'm hoping 🤞) I will try bring up more my younger self as a child and imagine how I'd be with her.
My therapist helps me with the visualisations but then of course practice is needed as it seems along the way we gave forgotten who we are and what our essence is.
If you look up self compassion meditation or similar topic it may help too especially Tara Brach I find very compassionate
May you be gentle with yourself
@independentPond4260 I am glad you braved yourself to ask this question.
What do you think could be the reasons, that prevent you from loving yourself completely?
(Think of it as a journal and let your thoughts be free. Assume noone is reading. Even if they are, they do no really know you and wont be judgmental 🧡)
Maybe bcoz I'm not good at expressing myself, my emotions to others. I'm not good at expressing what I feel. I always supress my feelings of love, anger , thinking of it might annoy or irritate others. I lack confidence on myself and my thoughts. I overthink every situation and I'm emotionally weak. I don't know how to react if someone is showing their love or expressing themselves to me. And sometimes it happens that if I'm doing something with great interest then after some time or days, a loose intrest. I can't stick to one routine for a longer time. I always find myself making fake scenarios that is never gonna happen. I'm also loosing intrest in my studies I used to be good at.
