Can I ever be happy again?
Is there any hope left? Can i be happy again? Whenever I try to write about my feelings, tears fill my eyes. I'm just a dust on the floor, no worth. I've been crying every single day for a month now. It hurts so much inside. It's killing me. I had suicidal thoughts but I know I can never do such things. I was the best at everything since birth. But it's like this for me . I do it perfect the first time, and soon when I do it more, I become a loser. I am a sore loser now. I am fed up. I just cry and cry. I want scream and shout but I can't. My family mustn't know I am this crazy or that I cry this much. But I think before that I might go crazy. I want a normal life. I've never had a normal life . There is so much going on. I am crying right now. I don't even know anymore what I am typing. I xjust know that I am not smart anymore, I even feel good hates me. And finally, there seems to be no hope. I'm stuck..
@AVERY2SMITH
Hi there !
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time in your life. I'm not very good at advice but one thing I know is that there is always hope and happiness somewhere in this world. It might not be obvious at the moment but if you power through these difficult times, you'll be able to reach it one day. Sometimes it just means noticing the little positive things that happen around you.
I understand that you feel far from perfection at the moment. But it never does us any good to always compare ourselves with our past ... You are who you are and I'm proud of you getting this far, okay ? If you need to scream and shout then I would recommend you doing just that, sometimes it feels good to get the emotions out of your system ! And I know that opening up to your family might be difficult, maybe there are other people that you could reach out to and talk about all these feelings ... ? If need be there are always listeners here or you can talk to me.
Oh and just a personal thought, there is no 'normal' life. Everybody has their struggles and difficulties. We all make our way through them and become stronger people.
Sending positive thoughts your way, I hope things get better for you soon.
Siz.
@Slizzy564
Thanky ou so much for your encouragement. I will read this post everyday from now on and try to change my life. I will try to be happy. Thank u sooo so so much. It really means a lot When someone reads ur problem and cares to reply. Thank u so much.
@AVERY2SMITH
You're more than welcome :) I hope things start to look better for you. If you ever need to vent, you can share your thoughts here, I'd be happy to answer ! Keep fighting, there will always be people behind you to support you :)
@AVERY2SMITH
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