Feeling Lost
I don't really know if anyone is ginna see or read this but I've learned through experience that writing down all my pent up emotions and thoughts helps me relax and release them a bit so here we go...
Recently I've just felt genuinely alone and I've been going through a downward spiral and it's really just building pressure and I know that soon I'm going to explode. I already know that its because I feel like I'm losing my friends but I feel like there's nothing I can do about it. All I ever see is them hanging out without me and over 2 months ago they asked me to spend $30 to buy a game cuz they said they wanted to play it with me and I have yet to play it with them yet they play it together all the time. And I can't talk to them about it because every other time I've tried to talk to them they've lied to my face saying that theyre sorry and they don't mean to exclude me and that they'll invite to do something with them next time. I cant talk to my other friends because they either have their own personal problems and I shouldnt bug them with mine or they arent one of the people I feel close enough to to confide in.
So yeah.... thats my life right now.
Hello, sorry if i give my opinion when you didn't ask for it and maybe just wanted to vomit our your thoughts... but i really suggest you to stop seeing those people as "friends", it's a mistake.. friends don't exclude other friends from the group, and they listen to another friend when they need help. I think you probably need new friends, everyone deserves to be around people that care for them and stay away from who makes them feel bad or miserable. I am not an expert of making new friends but you can try to join some group (like start a sport or a course of something ur passionate about. You may find someone that shares ur interest there and become their friend)
Everyone in my family is really smart and everyone expects a lot from me. And I used to do just fine, topping every exam and making my parents happy. And I wanted to study. But for the past month or so, I've been crying at least 5 times a day for no reason. I feel like doing nothing at all and hate getting out of bed. The smallest things make me cry which in turn makes me hate myself. I can't concentrate at all on my studies. Once I topped my exams, whereas now I'm failing all the time and I don't even want to try to make it better. I'm really tired of living. All the quizzes I took pointed out that I'm depressed, but does depression happen for no reason? Why am I suddenly feeling this way? There's no reason for me to be sad or cry
@eselly8
First I just want to let you know that I myself and others have felt like this, so you are not alone. It's real hard to get through each day without having that person to go to and I get that. I also know it is hard to seek out new friends, but if that is something you do think you'd be able to try then go for it!
Another idea would be to try to hang out just a part of the friend group, people that fall more in the category of "followers" and probably dont want to exclude you quite like the others. Chances are, not everyone in the group wants to exclude you but they feel compelled the "leader(s)" of their group.
Always remember that you deserve to feel wanted and liked by the people you call friends and surround yourself with. You deserve kindness and happines, feel free to reach out if you need anything or just want to talk
@eselly8
Hey sweetheart!
I have been in a situation where I have hung out with some people that I called friends, but lately I realised that they didn't make me happy.
I just want you to know that whatever they do, you are not less worthy if they make you feel like that. You are not identified by those friends, and your life is full of new chances and new beginnings and you can start over every day, even if it seems impossible at some times!
Keep strong, I believe in you <3 <3