I don’t have a title but i mean life am I right 😆 tw:suicide mention
This is just me venting about my life tbh but I honestly almost don’t have a will to live anymore, the only reasons i’m here today is because I don’t ever want to put my love ones into this much pain. I don’t even live for myself anymore and the world is just so ugly and sad but I know I won’t ever commit suicide so I feel like I am and will always be trapped into living pain until I die but at least I’m pretty.😎
I know the feeling. It is really hard to see the point to stay alive, and honestly the main reason I'm still here is because I've seen how much pain the death of a relative causes. But I'm glad we're both alive, and I know that our families are too. {I'm sure your really pretty}
Thank you so much so much it feels good to know that other people can relate and I’m glad you’re alive too because you seem like an amazing person <3
@hansizoe
i'm so sorry you're feeling this way, but i can completely relate. i was in that same position and felt like i was trapped in a glass box for such a long time. i felt so numb towards everything and had no will to live as well. i can assure you that it does get better. the pain will finally stop. i know right now it probably seems near to impossible that anything can change or look up, but it does - with time. i know this is cheesy, but there is always a rainbow even at the end of the worst storms. try to have hope. i'm very happy that you won't commit but i want you to know that i felt that way too. i didn't want to put anyone through any of the pain i was experiencing to have me gone. i understand you and you aren't alone. but, you don't have to do this alone. my pm's are open for you. you can feel free to leave me a message if you would like to talk. i know just getting it out helped me a little and i really want the same for you. you'll get through this. you're so much stronger than you think. trust me on that 
I guess you’re right, I have no other options anyway but to wait and hope things will get better even tho I always have this feeling that I will end up disappointing everyone one. It still feels great to know that people can relate to what I’m saying and yes I’ll try to send a message if I ever need someone to talk to thank you so much for your answer <33
@hansizoe
you definitely will not end up dissapointing everyone! you'll get through this. but yes having hope is very important and i'm happy that you're open to waiting. i waited for a very long time, but it did come! theres light at the end of the tunnel - try to make your way through, keep fighting and not get stuck in the dark <3
@hansizoe
I definitely can see what you mean. I wake up everyday wishing it was over and hoping sleep will offer some peace. I haven't enjoyed being alive for a long time despite people's best intentions. I hope you hang in there because it is hard and we all support you and want you to find that hapiness