I hate my life and wish I could just be happy
Ever since the pandemic, my life has got worse...I’ve finally realized my family aren’t as good as they make me think...they’re controlling and won’t let me live..:they only care about how good I do at school. They’re controlling, hate the left, anti-lgbt, hate non-Christians...they hate anything that they don’t like...and I’ve realized I’m a demisexual animist pagan leftist... Throughout 2020 and 2021...school has been getting harder and harder cause of Covid and it has destroyed my mental health...it’s caused me to develop anxiety and depression and now...the rejection of the first person I’ve ever loved has broke me...I...I feel more lonely then I’ve ever had before...two weeks ago was the first time I’ve started harming myself...and I’ve not stopped...and I feel pathetic...and hopeless...all I wanted to do in my life was finish a book I’ve been trying to since 8th grade...but I now have doubts I’ll just fail at that...the one thing I love to do.
@Tazavitch
Hi there, this pandemic has wreaked havoc, hasn’t it? I am sorry to hear you are going through this and have had to experience this pain. There are wonderful listeners and members here at 7 cups to support and listen to you. We are glad you are here. I also wanted to mention this forum, as there are members here either going through or have gone through similar things. I can understand how hard can be and how sometimes: https://www.7cups.com/home/selfharm/
Take care and sending you good vibes
Hey, thanks for sharing. I want you to know that you are heard. I'm glad you came here to let out your feelings. I hope that helped relieve some of the stress. Depression literally sucks the life out of you. Believe me, I know. It's hard to find hope, and it's hard to believe that things will get better. You are not alone, friend. Let's get through this one day at a time. Please feel free to watch this for encouragement: https://youtu.be/6a1p1_jzM14
