Left behind again

I am being left out again. I know my friends are toxic but I kept going with them to not be completely alone. Although I told them about two girls, who are their friends, that I don’t feel comfortable around them, they insist on pushing me towards them for the hundredth time!!! This is so depressing that every time I try to get closer to them and feel like HAVING FRIENDS they do something that annoy me and they actually know it. They planned for hanging out today, but the place is completely unacceptable for me and my parents of course refused. I asked them if they can change the place because I didn’t see them outside the school since a really long time, but they didn’t even care about my request and ignored the message! Coincidentally I knew yesterday that the rest of their friends (the two girls) will be there. The real disappointment is that one of my friends always try to show me how much she hates these two girls when we all know she IS their friend. The situation itself did not annoy me as the idea that it is not the first time to be abandoned and left behind by my friends for them choosing being friends with others. Although I got used to this (especially that I moved to MANY schools and cities for my parents’ job), I still feel heavy weight that I have such a bad personality and no one likes me. By the way I think I have some interesting sides of my personality but no one wants to discover it. I hope I could find a friend next year in university who knows me for myself not for my high academic level and the benefits they can have from being friends with me.