Overwhelming

I don't know what to do. Most days it feels like I can't breathe. I can't get out of bed some days. I can't eat. I can't shower. I can't do anything but just lay here and cry or stare at my ceiling or sleep. That's all I do most days. My dad isn't the man he used to be. He doesn't try and understand me he doesn't try to be there for me. I'm just a burden for him. I'm alone here. I have no one around me that understands. They all tell me to suck it up and get over it but I can't. I don't even know where to start trying to get better. I just have so many thoughts and feelings going through me that all bring me pain. I just wish I could have the smiling, happy childlike me back. I'm tired of being in pain. I'm tired of being so overwhelmed