Vent
Recently, I got into an argument with my mother. At some point, my mental illness came up and she said that I “don’t have a mental illness” even though she was literally there when I was diagnosed and that she’s “not equipped to take care of someone with a mental illness.” I get where she’s coming from, I really do. It’s not easy trying to help people you love who suffer from mental illnesses. At the same time, however, I had to put up with her projecting her trauma and illnesses onto me for years and her only justification for it was “she has issues.” It just really hurt to hear that from her. It makes me feel like I’m a burden and only reaffirms my fears and doubts about people wanting me around.
your are a burden to her. This is exactly how my mother is too me. They simple just don't care and don't see the value in what you need. ...(if that makes sense) Your problems mean nothing to her, that's what i learned.. the hard way. You just have to find your way by yourself.. its highly difficult but.. :/ eh..
I have the same problem with parents who are not capable of understanding me, and are very toxic constantly. I know there's nothing wrong with me and that I'm right, but its just hard to keep going all the time.
Not being seen, being ignored is one of the worst feelings in the world. My dad did the same to me, he claimed I was possessed, and I went through a hard time because of it. Do know that your condition, your issues are all completely valid and true, no matter what others say. Some parents can't bring themselves to acknowledge that their child has a problem.. The point is to remember that your struggle is real and your problems are completely valid, whether your mother says they are or not. You aren't a burden and you have the right to take up space. My heart is with you! 💓