idk
i feel very bad. everytime i try to lift myself up i keep falling back in my misery. i try to have a good mindset, i try to do all the things you are supposed to do and that are supposed to happen and yes, maybe they work for like a day or two but everytime the smallest trigger appears i fall all the way back from where i started. i know i should keep trying and i want to save myself, but i cant escape it. and my parents dont understand it, like i tried to open up today with them and they told me its not real. im tired of feeling like a dissapointment and to be anxious all the time and to be negative and to not be able to open up with my friends. everybody i try to be myself with pushes me away. and i know they were not the right people but im just tired of living like this.
Hi there, it's so brave of you to reach out and share your feelings with us. It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of anxiety and difficult emotions! I hope you're able to find a supportive community here at 7cups! Feel free to reach out to me or any other listeners whenever you need. 
Im sorry to say this.. but i dislike it when someone comes and say this exact thing to someone who just expressed so much out of their hearts. Because this message is so robotic their isnt much heart. Just what your supposed to say daily. sorry if im rude.
wow.. i get that. The parents thing. I only have a mom and she thinks Im just having teen attitudes.. :/ so I gave up in talking to her.
Ive been pushed away too, but I still act like myself. I know it hurts when it happens but everyone isnt going to understand you. only a small population. Or only yourself... Just keep being yourself. even if you think you're broken. Be proud of it that you're different. Most people desire unique personalities.
