Devasted
I told my husband I don't want to be in this marriage anymore. I've been feeling like this for such a long time. It's the right thing to. We both want completely different lives and it's not fair that one of us would have to sacrifice everything we've ever wanted for the other. That being said, even though I know it was the right choice, I am completely devasted and inconsolable. We've been together for almost 10 years and now I want to leave? What the fuck is wrong with me?! I feel awful, I truly hate myself and I wish I didn't feel this way. I hate that I'm the number one villian in his life, I hate that I hurt him so bad. I'm so disgusted with myself and honestly never deserve to be with anyone ever again.
Don't say that to yourself, it's not your fault :( what if your husband felt it was his fault this situation is happening? You would tell him he's wrong right? It sounds like this was just not meant to be, because you guys want different things. I hope you get to heal, sorry this had to happen