Flattening the rollercoaster

My name is Andrew.

By all accounts, I have a good lufe that I should be grateful for. I worked hard to accomplish many things and improve life for my family and myself. And yet no amount of victories seems to keep depression away for long.

I know my depression cycle well enough to understand that I am currently coming OUT of a depressive slump. The last momth has been hard, mentally, so keep going.

After the slump comes the soaring highs of hyperactivity. I am writing down goals, redoubling my efforts, and frantically looking to keep myself busy and productive. I know that for a few weeks I have a great amount of motivation and energy, even if it will likely be gone by April.

I am researching apps to schedule to-do lists, form habits, and hopefully force my brain so deep into routine that this rollercoaster ride between depressed lows and rebounding highs ends. Or at least becomes less pronounced.

Does anyone else steuggle with this? Unmotivated to wash dishes all January and February.. now ready to tackle the whole world in March. When all I want is stability..