Hello, first time here

Hello, First time, not sure what to say or do or where to start. Recently diagnosed over tele-conference that I am BiPolar Depressed. Tendencies perhaps, but not BiPolar. Another label when they don't know how else to help you. My husband and I believe I have PTSD. My doctor is sending me for a diagnosis to another doctor. More medication? Why can't I simply sit down with an experienced person in pschology; tell my complete story [again], make some understanding of it all, find acceptance or even better a solution. I am not the same person, my life feels like a bad dream sometimes, I'm more scared, worried and depressed than I have ever been in my life. Stressors: Situational. Something my MHW and I figured out. I don't remember what it means; but it sounds fixable. My personality type is INFJ-T I am advocate. I am alone. I need help [lack of better health care where we live]. From one day to the next I do the same thing unfortunately but sometimes I find time to sit and work on a craft [not often enough]. I could keep typing but I said long list of issues and all of them are weighing me down to the point of affecting my health more. I am tired, and alone, and just want to be free of stress-worry-anger-fear-low self esteem-negative thinking-bad things happening. A lot to accomplish and I tell myself it's too much and I want to run. But I have nowhere to go. So here I am. A messed up isolated and depressed woman. Needing a friend. Sorry for myself ahead of time.