Hi

at expressing myself or talking to someone for support. Growing up, I thought finding support for yourself is weak and all my life I have been crying by myself, talking to myself, and take caring myself. I never ask anyone on the internet or in real life for advice because I'm afraid of criticism and saying that all of the things I told them is just me being dramatic or overreacting. So please go easy on me. I have a lack of relationship with people, I am suicidal (well at least I never attempt one),and a narcist. My parents are bad parents in my opinion but if I look in others perspective I don't think they are. They never really hit me or yelled at me but the do hurt me little by little. I'm scared of both of them. And I'm falling out of friendship from my friends, I never talk to them or anything. I have intense hatred for people who is in my way, I forgot to mention I think I'm psychopathic so the people I hate I like to imagine I'm murdering them for some reason. It makes me happy to see them suffer. And I have no empathy whatsoever. Rereading this sounds like I'm a monster from another planet, no humanity, crazy, and too sensitive. So all I ask is for someone to listen even if I can't put things to word. Understand my point of view and helping me understand others point of view. Thank you for your time <3