Hi!

Hello everyone! Call me Apricot. I'm 26 years old. I have not been diagnosed with depression- doctors are expensive after all, but I've been dealing with symptoms of depression and anxiety since I was around eight, and every year it feels like it gets worse. It's been really hard lately. Nothing can even be wrong and I feel like I can't move sometimes. It probably doesn't help that I have some past trauma- I get nightmares almost every night because of it, but I have to do something. I can't live like this anymore.

The road ahead will be bumpy, sure, but I'm going to try my hardest, even on my worse days.

I really want to seek professional help, but money my whole life has always been a bit of an issue, so I'm trying my best to learn new coping mechanisms and new thought processes that won't send me into a loop of hating myself or on the verge of breakdown. 🙃

I like playing videogames. I've been playing WoW, breath of the wild, and Dragon Age Inquisition as of late. I also love DND.

I've been with an amazing man for three years now... We plan to get married, but we don't live in the same country currently. We have to get our crap together first, but it'll happen one day. I'm not sure of many things, but I'm sure of him. I'm really lucky.

I'm also obsessed with cats and animals in general. I really want to have a hobby farm one day... fingers crossed my body doesn't break by then. I'm pretty sickly as a person. I get a cold every other week which really

doesn't help my mental state, but y'know. It is what it is.