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My name is alyssa im a little new to this so bare with me. I have been strugling with depression for a while now and i hope i can find support here, also to help and support people just like me.

Howdy, I am...well, I am a person....

And I realized I had depression a year ago and I realized I've had it for years recently......

But I am not cutting, I don't benefit from that anymore.

But I am emotionally dead inside.... I think?

I can't really feel anything but emptiness anymore, aside from occasionally feeling happiness bubbling at the surface but it wasn't wholehearted.

Anyway I like to help people the best I can! But the thing is that I skipped out on trying to help myself until I had already lost my emotions.

But I am not here for pity and sorrows. I am here to change for both my sake and my family's, but they don't even know.

I had convinced them that when I had so foolishly accidentally revealed my cuts to them that I was only cutting to know why my friend did it....

Which was only partially true, I felt like I wanted to do it too, I've wanted to do it myself for years at that point.

But I want to change.

i want to feel.

I want this stage of my life to end.

And it's as sure as Hell that I'm going to try my hardest.

Who's with me?

Sorry, this is long. This is me trying tk make sense of why im depressHello, I'm new. I've been depressed for 17 years, since I was 12, I think anyway. I'm 29. I tried to kill myself when I was 19, but failed, told my parents, and all they said was "why would you do something stupid like that?" Now I don't share my feelings with hardly anyone. I've been through therapy for years and haven't got anywhere.

I've always had a hard time making friends, but I at least had a couple of close friends who didn't go to my school when I was a kid. When I was 14, one of them moved away, and the other one, who was my best friend, and I finally got to go to school together. After a couple of months, she ended up not talking to me because the guy she was dating told her not to, and that was that. Ever since then, I haven't had any close friends.

I haven't had a problem getting boyfriends though. I remember being 12, and being totally obsessed with getting a boyfriend. It was all I wanted. I had my first boyfriend when I was 13, and haven't been single much since then. I hate being one of those girls who always needs a boyfriend. But the only time I've ever been happy is in a new relationship, and I am totally unstable without one. I wasn't like that before I lost all my friends. I don't know how to change.

Hello, My name is Morgan. I have been struggling with my deppression lately due to my ptsd and lack of sleep. or at least those aren't helping. I am trying my best to work threw it and find a balance in my life.

Hello my name is Swetha. I am currently doing an internship here at 7 cups, but have been listening for months. Looking forward to getting to know all of you!

Hi, I'm Georgia. I just found out that I have had depression for almost a year now, and my parents know but aren't trying to help me. I am nervous to ask because I don't think that I will get what I need from them. I am a shy person who hids all of my emotions deep inside and I am going to burst, I am taking initiative and finding new ways to return to my old self.

Hi, my name is Kiana. Lately I've been struggling with my depression and have had some breakdowns. I thought I'd join this community to find some support to help me through these feelings.

Hey, I'm Vanessa and I've just joined cause things just feel like they've gotten worse? I dunno, I'm not very good at talking about myself but I'm kinda hoping this might help? I dunno

hey guys i'm rachael. i've been going through a rough time for a while now, it started probably 4 years ago. i can't remember tbh. but my friends have been saying a lot lately that I have depression and that it's getting worse. it's the thing commonly known but hardly ever spoken about. i've finally come to accept (after being sexually assaulted, after cutting for months, after going through an eating disorder, after crying every night and thinking of the elusive way out, after just in general not remembering the last time i was really happy, after the many arguments with my mom that left me feeling that I'm an utter failure and disappointment to everyone i love) that i might be a little depressed. i've been on 7cups for a while now but i'm new to this subcommunity. so, hey guys.

So, I've been on 7 cups for a little over 2 weeks now. The core reason I decided to even join was due to the fact that my depression and my moods were getting out of hand for myself to handle and was starting to take its toll between me and my boyfriend. It probably started when I was around 13 years old - when I started noticing it. It wasn't as bad as it has been now, it used to just be periods were I wouldn't want to do anything, I wouldn't want to talk to anyone I would just want to sit in my room by myself feeling miserable and feeling like I couldn't get myself to do anything. Over time till now as I'm 18 it's hit it's peak and it's just something that I felt like I couldn't control anymore and it was taking over my life. I would struggle with doing daily things such as getting myself out of bed just to take a shower. I would physically feel like I couldn't do it. My boyfriend lives about an hour on a plane away from me which has been extremely hard as he is the only person I can talk to about it. He recently visited me for the first time and him leaving to go home has a significant impact on me. Everything seemed amazing when he was here and as soon as he left I felt like I had been abandoned and I had no one. Until I joined 7 cups. I've learnt that I'm not alone and that there's other people out there going through the same thing and willing to help. I've made so much progress with myself and I'm actually starting to feel happy as a person now.