New here, feeling alone in the world
I'm new here... I've struggled with depression since the age of 9, when my mother died. It comes and goes, but right now I'm having a bad reoccurence. Watching family and friends move on, have kids, get married...I have none of that. I have my dogs, and truthfully they're the only things that keep me here. My job is toxic and horrible, I'm looking for a new one, but I'm not qualified for anything and I don't know what I want to do. I'm worried about finances, how to maintain my house on my own...I'm so scared that I'll just be alone for the rest of my life. I have a boyfriend, but I dont think hes going to commit long term, even though he says he will. He's all talk, but he hasn't actually shown me that he loves me. Not in the way he says he does. So..yeah. Hi.
i am sorry you have been going through all that and i’m proud you are reaching out for help. you are much stronger than you anticipate. i think you should communicate with those around you and tell them how you’ve been doing. give your dogs some kisses, i have four dogs and they’re amazing. also, if possible you should look into trade schools (they’re cheaper and can get u experience in a short amount of time as well as good paying jobs). i hope you everything works out for you love. most importantly, you are not alone. you have people to talk to here <3