New to chat and tired of going through this alone
Hello. First time "chatting". I can be considered old school. I am needing to reach out for support. I suffer severe depression and anxiety. I was let go last month from a job I loved. Helping people experiencing homelessness. I'm afraid that I am going to lose my home as well as the ability to help myself get back up again. I have no partner, close friends or family who don't understand why i can't help myself right now. I don't love myself right now and am upset at myself for being mentally ill. I have to find a way past this rejection.
@SearchingButterfly72
Hi there.
I listened to your story, I see that it's your first time asking for help, I am glad you're considering it currently.♡ It can be hard to deal with all this along with Depression and Anxiety, but I am sure you'll find your way through and we are here to Support you along your way. You're not alone.♡
@0SnowSound0
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. It means a lot to me. I hope to make it through. Yesterday was a "bad" day. I couldn't see a way out from my circumstances and really felt cornered. My faith helps me and I also need to be able to talk to someone who understands. I am the only one that can truly change my circumstances, I think. Just hard to do when I feel broken and for some reason I take it out on myself. By not eating probably, bathing, and isolating myself. This is a step to pulling myself out of the quick sand of depression. I hope you are doing well today and thank you again.
@SearchingButterfly72
[No need to thank me.^] I am sorry that you've went through a bad day. It's true that you're the who can really change your situation.. as It's your own choice.. I am glad you considering to help yourself to get well.. it surely would be hard and for every mistake you feel like you deserve to punished for.. as you mentioned; not eating or shower.. ~etc~ But you're trying and that's what it matters.. you deserve to be well like any other person."<3"
I am okay.. Thank-You for your hopes."<3"
@SearchingButterfly72. None of this is your fault. No one is to blame for mental illness. Im glad you came here, someone is always available to support you. Im sorry about your job loss, that can be hard to take, especially if you loved your job. Please don't let it affect yiurelf worth, you are still a valuable person. I will be thinking about you. Take care
@Riverswancycnus
Thank you for your response. I appreciate the accessibility to meet people who understand the difficulty in dealing with a mental illness. I am still struggling and am fighting the overwhelming desire to go back to bed. Right now self care and medication management is my focus. Which can be a lot for someone like me at times. I am surrounded by family that I am constantly having to explain or defend the immobilized feeling of depression. That gets frustrating and sad. Thanks again for reaching out. Take care
