ahaha life sucks.
Hi, my name is Gear. (he/him)
I'm a sufferer of a lot of disorders, and depression is just one.
It's currently 11:18pm and I am supposed to get up really early tomorrow.
I've tried everything to sleep... but I just can't.
Part of it is anxiety/overthinking, another part is depression, and the other part is dysphoria. Insomnia is the umbrella over it all.
When you're in your sleep clothes and the lights are off and you're snuggled all warm in cozy in your cold-ass room is the perfect time for your brain to start overthinking. It's torture to lay there trying to sleep and you just can't. Sometimes tears will come because I'm so frustrated with trying to sleep.
And then 7 Cups isn't letting me send messages to anybody, anywhere. So I don't have anyone to talk to at all.
I feel so lonely.
@obsessivecompulsivegear
Hey, Gear. I probably am not the most helpful person on here because I just joined and I'm a teenager who's trying to help out someone-probably-older-than-me, and I'm not the most amazing, optimistic person in the world and I've already got a chuck load of problems I've got to deal with (who doesn't?), but I know that feeling. That feeling of what you're talking about. Unable to sleep when you know you've got something big happening tomorrow early in the morning but being unable to sleep, no matter how many times you chug warm milk or use sleep meditating programs with gentle voices cooing in your ear. And the overwhelming feeling of being so, so hopelessly alone. I want to help you so badly and I don't know how I can, but the only thing I can offer you is my support.
Now I'm reading back on this and realize that I'm not being very helpful and if I'm just adding on to your sorrows... I'm so sorry I really don't know what I'm doing.
@murphysllaw thanks so much :D
