It’s been a Day

I have hEDS, and I’m undiagnosed but pretty symptomatic of OCD. 

I use capital-D “Day” for when it’s really rough, it’s been a Day

i had 4 classes today

 when I woke up, my wrist hurt, so I KT taped it 

 first hour, I have ceramics, so that’s pushing on clay and stuff and putting pressure on my wrist

 that made it hurt

 second hour, I have chemistry

 we were doing a lab experiment today. The teacher doesn’t just teach chemistry, she has other classes, so the equipment tables were set up for multiple experiments. Smt smelled weird, like burning. I had seen some kid messing with a lighter, I thought maybe it caught something. Then it started smelling sweet. We have natural gas in the rooms for the Bunsen burners, so I thought maybe there was a leak. That built up in my brain until the teacher was talking and I had to look around the room to make sure all the gas valves were closed. The one closest to me was open. That’s horrible. OCD isn’t supposed to be right. I got up while she was talking, turned it off, and sat back down. I was staring at her and waiting for her to stop talking so I could tell her about it, just in case. When she was done, I went up to her and told her about it, and she said thank you but it’s ok bc the main gas valve was shut off, so it couldn’t do anything. It still smelled like gas though. I talked to my dad later, it would’ve been all the extra leftover gas that was in the pipes before she shut off the main, out just hadn’t gotten out yet. 

Third hour, my photophobia (sensitivity to bright/flashing light) kicked in. We have digital classroom boards, like a big TV, and I couldn’t look at it. It was too bright. I copied my notes from my friend. 

Fourth hour was good

 photophobia got me again on my way out of school. The whole main hallway has square tiles on the floor and square brick walls, so it makes a grid. When I walk through it to get to the buses, it all starts looking shaky and strobing like an optical illusion. I don’t know of anyone else that gets that. My legs also started getting fatigued, since my fourth hour to the door is basically the whole length of the school

 on the bus, I was wearing a super warm flannel, and the heat was on, and my heart is icky all the time and I’m bad at internally regulating my body heat and stuff, so I started getting really hot

 my shoulder started hurting, so when I got off the bus, I took all the stuff out of my bag and carried it in my temporarily-good arm instead. My bus stop is also pretty far from my house, since it’s a really crowded route and they couldn’t afford to add a closer stop, even though there are a bunch of ppl that live over there??

 and all of that on maybe 5 hours of sleep. Not horribly little, but enough to wake up sore and get fatigued easier later