The Pain Is Killing Me!
I cant cope. I cant cope. Pain is consuming me. It is agony. I am 14 this isnt fair. i never signed up to suffer like this. Everyday i am in excruciating pain and there is nothing i can use to help.
I have been a sufferer for 5 years. It all just keeps getting worse. I think, will it get better? Am i ever going to be okay?
Part of me thinks NO. what is the point any more just give up. Give in. You cant over come this. What is the point of trying.
However there is stilll that little piece of me which is hanging onto hope.
Tonight i am suffering. i am in so much pain it is throbbing. every part of me is cramping and i just want a break. i dont know how i am meant to keep pushing through like this. I just wish doctors would help me so i could find ways in wich to cope :'( It's too much :'(
Will i be okay?
I guess over time we will find out.
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Joy my lovely it will be okay xxx I don't know much about chronically illness but I do believe that you will get through this and you can fight it okay xxxx it will be hard but you will! I love you Hun and I'm here for you xxx I Lysm x
@wittyBanana120
Thanks Bri <3 and im sorry it is just a really bad tonight <3 im really strugging :'( i will keep trying its just so hard and i just feel like i cant do it no more :'(
@JoyIntoDarknessHun please xxxxx YOU CAN!!!! Please try for me please, message allie please!
@wittyBanana120
Allies been busy she messaged me at 9 said she has to go. i dont know when she will be back.... i just ive been worrying like hell... so yeah :'(
Joy sweetie, I know it's not fair and it's hard yes the struggling everyday but everyday you are here? It shows YOU are a survivior and that YOU can do it. It's not easy and I know what's it like to be in excrutiating pain everyday but it's a one step at a time thing. I can't say how tomorrow is because I can't predict the future but let's work through it Joy. I know I've told you already but no matter how much times I say it, I want you to believe it for yourself, okay? You are great, caring, sweet, amazing, lovely, fantastic, brave and STRONG. You are strong for going through all of this and I'm in awe because of it. I'm in awe because no matter how the pain is Joy or the things that's going on, you have managed to stay here with all of us and that is bravery and strong.
Joy! you were strong all this while and you still are strong, everything passes with time and that's for sure. You are worth it and I believe in you, you are a Survivor and you are amazing! Just remember that while going forward, if you ask me why you need to keep going I would say to set an example to others suffering as well, You already are a role model so keep going! It's never wrong to ask for help because people will be willing to help but only if you ask <3
@charmingUnicorn97
Thankyou, this was like great timeing <3 so eah thankyou so much <3 I think im ready to start reaching out for that help y'know? <3
@JoyIntoDarkness I am really proud of you hun -hugs- 
@charmingUnicorn97
I am really trying <3 and thankyou <3
to my fabulous, amazing, wonderfully gorgeous, marvelous, shining ☆star☆ @JoyIntoDarkness
Joybae, you may not know it, you may not believe it, but you are absolutely amazing. From day 1 since I net you there was on doubt in my mind about the fact that you were, irrefutably, a fighter. You're just so irrevocably strong, hun, and I just wanted to remind you of that ♥ I know things are going suckitty right now -huggles- but things get better, this won't last forever, and we're all here for you ♥ I have been busier than usual and unable to log on as much, but as soon as I saw this I knew I needed to give you a reminder of how freaking fantabulous you are and how much you mean to me ♥ (and duuh I added colours since I'm Eno hehe) I just hope you never forget that you've got friends on here, we all love you and care about you loads, more than you could ever imagine. ♥ This won't last forever, and I for one have no doubt that you can make it out of this mess alive. You're always going to be a fighter in my eyes, my lovely Joybae typotwin ♥
love, Eno x
@NewRomantic677
Awh Eno, My typo twinnie <3 this made me cry <3 i love you so much <3 you are such and amazing friend and ENOY-ing with you is like the best thin ever <3 i wouldnt be here without you <3
@Joyintodarkness
Oh my sweet amazing warrior <3 Joy , I know you have been taking too much , still doing , it is all big , unbearable , not small , and should not be still covered under your shadow <3 I believe in you , I love you , I admire your tenacious head who persists ( or tries to persist ) all of these burden-some troubles <3
* Hugs my darlo *
YOU ARE AN ASTOUNDING HERO , even If you refuse to believe that , it is as simple as that.
@gracefulSong70
Thankyou so much <3 this means a lot <3
@JoyIntoDarkness ♥
Firstly , I am so super sorry I didn't see this sooner :( ♥ * huggles tight * joy Joy my darling , I really hope the pain is a little less today ? I know this must be agony and no , it doesn't seem fair that someone as lovely as you should have to go through this , at this age too ! I know this makes it seem cruel and unjust and that this is a real struggle , I also know that life must seem hopeless this way . I don't personally know the pain you're experiencing or whether it will get better one day or not but I do know that you are an amazing fighter and I'm so so proud of you for that ! The way you keep fighting through all this pain and the way you just don't give up is inspirational ♥ Please carry on this fight sweetheart and don't give up , I know you can do this ! Even though things might seem hopeless now , there is always hope and there will always be the people who love you too ♥ Please stay strong and carry on being the beautiful , brave warrior you are ! I love you so much darling * huggles * and I'm so sorry I can't be here for you better at the moment :( I do still have the doc we were working on though , if you'd like and when you feel up to it we can do more of that ♥
@ih0pe
This made me cry snappy Dragon! Omg! Like oh my day x ou are such an amazing friend I wouldn't be here without you. Honsestly wouldn't. Thankyou. And I would love to work on that doc... I feel as though a distraction may be good xxx love you lots. I'm fighting for DRAGLIA!!! Xxx