A letter to Ana... ! TRIGGER WARNING !
Dear Ana,
I have something to tell you although you probably already know anyway... I love you.
I love you so much that I run on empty one, two, three or more days at a time.
I love you so much that I isolate myself from everyone and everything just to be with you; to be both alone And lonely at the same time.
I love you so much that I punish myself when I defy you.. Every cut, every bruise, every tear and every cramp...
Oh but Ana? Dear Ana...
I also hate you.
I hate you so much.
I hate you so much that the endless tablets, the hour upon hour of exercising, the wretching of the very silence that of which consumes me... They are all for you too.
I hate you so much that I depend on you.
I hate you so much that your love for me consumes the very skeleton that makes up my frame of obesity.
Dear Ana... Please let me go.
~ Shannon.
@ShanChan09
What a beautiful and honest letter. Thank you so much for sharing it with us.
@ShanChan09 Extremely well written! I can't even express to you how much this impacted me...Thank you for sharing. 
@ShanChan09
Thank you for posting this.. it is very candid.
@ShanChan09 This is absolutely beautiful
@ShanChan09
I think one of the things that is so beautiful and powerful about what you have shared here is that you are fully recognizing that there are good and bad things about Ana. I think that this often needs to happen. What I've noticed is that the good things often start to turn bad after time, but anorexia has the ability to continue to lure people with the promise of those good things...and it's hard not to believe her. Thank you for sharing this honest letter.
