I could use some support please
(pounds mentioned but not my weight)
The past 2 months I find myself slipping back into not eating or measuring my food I do eat so it fits in the Cal counts on the side of the container.
I am not (yet) recording the amounts in any kind of journal so that is a good thing, just counting sometimes in my head.
I do not own a scale so I only weigh myself at my friend's house every week and a half or so. I will not own a scale. I have lost in the past 3 weeks.
The thing is, the nutritionist says I should be 100lb for my height (4'11") and I am nowhere near that. I take steroids which cause weight gain so I feel like the only way it would be remotely possible is if I don't eat at all.
I just need some quotes or words of kindness right now. I don't want to backpedal. It's the last thing I want.
Thanks for listening.
@RemenyTheWriter
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Thank you Mx (sorry I don't know your preferred pronouns) @TrueArrow
@RemenyTheWriter Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a hard time. Seems that the steroid-related weight gain is stressing you. Does your nutritionist know you're taking them?
Very good that you're not recording the food since you know it triggers you into more disordered eating behaviours. You say 'not yet'. What do you fear would push you over the edge?
@Laraland thank you for responding. I am pretty stubborn but I don't like to say that I won't ever record it but I have no plans to. I know that leads to bad things. But it's a control thing bc my life is a mess right now. My nutritionist knows, I've been on it for over 20 years and will never be able to go off of them. She doesn't seem to get that what she is asking me to do is impossible without "waking the beast" so to speak.
@RemenyTheWriter I am sorry that you are struggling! But remember that this community cares about you and wants to see you well! Stay Stong! And if you are an adult I could would be delighted to be your listener if you want!
I would like that very much Mx @TheAsh (sorry I don't know your pronouns)
@RemenyTheWriter awesome send me a PM when you would like to talk! I here for you