Why do I keep doing this?
When I was diagnosed with anorexia , to me it was kind of ok because restricting was somehow me controlling everything I would eat (does that make any sense..?), but now It's the opposite, I have no control whatsoever , I binge, I restrict, I over exercise, even when I am exhausted my head is telling me to keep going. What the hell is going on? Why do I keep bingeing , why do I feel like I have to compensate this behaviour? Why do I hurt myself this much? Has anyone ever been through this?
@azureKite656 I am so sorry that you feel this way. Just remember to love yourself and care for you! Take some time to recognize that you are a good person
Its hard to find the right balance. Especally when you starved your body, brain and matalosim for so long. Its just tries to get the food you have been resticting, which is very common. But you gotta keep at it to find a healthy way that doesnt include many restictions and binging.
Its soemthing you use as a coping method but in the end it ends up controlling you but have to push yourself and i think maybe eventually the binging will stop, cause for me it is getting a lot less.