Food thoughts in the morning + nightmares
I feel like I've been getting better with my BED but my body has gotten so used to my binge eating that I cant have a single night where I don't have a nightmare about scavenging for food to binge on from trash bins or going to the grocery store to stock up on junk. And then once I wake up my nightmares influence my binges. And when im barely even awake, even before I open my eyes my mind is constantly set to "what are you going to binge on today". It's like my mind is programmed into a state where I should prioritize binging before anything. And usually I binge to numb out my stress and overall emotions, but it's weird seeing my mind just think to binge first thing in the day.
I’m sure this has been suggested before and i know how hard it is to distract yourself from these thoughts and feelings when it comes to food. But literally try anything and everything to distract yourself from going there. Video games, hanging out with friends, rubber band on the wrist, learning something new, even thinking about cute things like kittens, puppies, bunnies etc.. try to replace the bad thoughts with better ones. Of course it’s easier said than done and it takes some practice, even i haven’t got it down but sometimes distractions help me and stop me from acting on my consuming thoughts. Remind yourself that you’re strong and you got this. You can always drop me a message if you want someone to talk to.
