fallen off the wagon ☹
I was diagnosed 10 years ago and after CBT and stress and anxiety workshops, I overcame the binge-eating.
I've had the year from hell....college, redundancy, caring for my mum, getting agency work, moved house (twice), mum died, supporting dad and now started uni.
I've fallen off the wagon bigtime...binging for a while then undereating and dropping weight too fast
,,, got
The morning after....i have acute abdominal discomfort, nausea and self-disgust. I hate this feeling. The regret, self-loathing on top of the physical effects.
I contacted my GP surgery to get an appointment. I need to get a handle on this before I do any serious damage.
I'm so ashamed 😢
@jules07180 I fell off too. My 64th time this year. It's so hard waking up positive then failing again.
I can only tell you what I tell myself. We will get over this.
@jules07180
I am sorry to hear that you are upset with yourself and that your life has had many stresses this year. Falling does not mean that you do not have the ability to make changes and get back up. Sometimes your emotions take over and your brain does not work as it is supposed to and its justified given what you have described. I am really glad that you are getting help for your GP as it shows that you are getting that control back that you are wanting. What I would sugguest is to edit the plan that you have so you know what to do when you are stressed and what new things you have encountered that make you want to eat. Think about what can I do instead and making that avaliable to you. I would also look over and rehearse in your head what to do when this happens (a stressful event) when you are not emotional so when it does happen hopefully it will become an automatic response. Try not to beat yourself up too much, I know from personal experience that can be hard to do. Try some self talk like "I ate because I was stressed about this, next time it happens I will do (insert alternative strategy) instead. I am human and I do make mistakes. I may fall but I will get back up again".
Take care of yourself and do something good for yourself this weekend :)
New to this.
Hi everyone,
A friend recommended this site to me as I live in South Korea and feel a little isolated from people I can talk to about this.
I'll keep this short. I struggled with bulimia for three years, followed by a habitual addiction to binge eating. The whole thing has lasted longer than a decade.
I've had months of abstinence in recent years but have not had the best few months of late. I'm desperate to change my brain and take control of this ugly disease once and for all.
I wish you all well on your journey to recovery.
@zoeinkorea As others have said, sometimes brain chemistry and old habits overtake your intentions. There's absolutely no shame in that; they can be so difficult to override. A decade is a long time to 'unlearn', so to speak. Please be gentle to yourself. It can be useful to note why you relapse in specific instances because you can then map 'symptoms' or 'triggers' and have more of an indication of when/why you may do it. (E.g. Stress, feeling sad or lonely, etc.) It might help you feel more in control.
