from anna to b.e.d now feel trapped!
Im 30 years old, and a mother to three gorgeous kiddies, i have always had eatting issues, and a massive phobia of sickness, growing up i was painfully shy and a very fussy eater, I have been plus sized three times in the last 10 years and anorexic twice also suffered from pnd twice,depression, addictions, sexual abuse and mental abuse, and im now in the grip of BED have been for 5years I have put on 8st in 5 years and lost and gained 3st for the last few years, I still suffer with panic attacks daily if I go outside or shopping ect. I need help i feel lost in my crap life, :( x
Sorry you are and have been though so much. I hope that knowing someone is listening makes things easier. I do not have answers but I can say I know what it is like to deal with weight issues. And I know how hard life can sometimes get. I have found that I do best when I remember to love myself. And treat myself with respect. And go easy on your self one step one day and sometimes just take it one hour at a time.
Thank you for ur kind words means alot x yes slow and steady wins the race I guess I think I rush my life way to much tbh. @pinkGrapefruit5288
I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now. I understand what that "trapped" feeling is like.. it's really hard to overcome that compulsion and escape from the clutches of an eating disorder. From experience I know that an eating disorder ravages your life.. your social life, self esteem, and just quashes everything ... destroys you. It must be especially hard to go from one eating disorder to another .. it's like a never ending battle. You think that you can finally breathe after recovering from one, but then you're tossed from the frying pan and into the fire. I know it's a struggle.. and it's unbearable having to deal with this. Recovery is hard. It's even harder when all the stuff that you're dealing with (the psychological and physical effects of the illness) makes it even harder to break free from this. I'm always here for you if you ever need somebody to talk to , to listen , to understand what you're going through. You're not alone in this.
Thank you so much that's great to.know as this situation definitely makes me feel very alone at times just wish I could be me instead of feeling like I have spend all of my adult life being defined by my eatting issues or my mental health issues feels kinda crappy tbh @skyisblue
@loopyloubylou85 I understand what you mean completely by that statement! Do you want to talk more in PMs? I can't PM you but you can PM me anytime if you want to chat 
@loopyloubylou85 oops ! I just remembered you can't PM me either because I'm only a teen listener 
I do hope you'll connect to a listener and get more personal one on one support though! Take care alright ? I believe in you... You can do this ...
Hey its cool thanks anyways huni :) today's a good day I'm definitely not going to binge today as I wanna enjoy a special meal later (when I binge nothing even taste good just all the same cos I'm eatting everything in sight all day n normallyfeel so full and ill by tea time plus I have bad IBS so I'm suffing 95% of the time) today I refuse to feel rubbish cos of food :D @skyisblue
@loopyloubylou85 @skyisblue - if you're still looking for a listener, you are more than welcome to PM me. :)
@Anomalia why did you tag me ?!
@skyisblue - Oops, meant to add a message in that to you, too, since you had offered support and then realized that you couldn't talk to her since you're in different age groups, I wanted you to know that she had someone else. I know I worry about people if I can't reach out, so I didn't want you to! :)
